Top D-Bags of 2010.

The OFFICAL Douche Bags of 2010:

10. Kanye West- Besides the whole Taylor Swift thing he's been pretty good this year. And he gets points for his song runaway where HE calls himself a douchbag.

9. Jay Leno- Seriously, Conan got his show back. CHILL! That was SO annoying. The media pushed that story so far into our minds....grr!!

8. Taylor Momsen- I don't pay much attention to her.

7. Scott Disick- I LIKE SCOTT! Yes even though at times he seems like a complete jerk he loves Kourtney and he loves Mason! Whoever wrote this list talked about his 'drunking rages' YEAH he only had one rage and that was MONTHS ago and HE GOT HELP FOR IT.
6. David Arquette- Hm...don't know what to say on this one.

5. Mel Gibson- Enough said!

4. Kate Gosselin- OH-MY-GOSH!! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!
She would be number one on my list! She is TOTALLY a douche bag. Thank ya!

3. John Mayer- I really, really, really don't like him! I've never liked him. Never will...too bad his music is so wonderful! No! It's not...it's not...it's...it is! Ugh!
Why must his songs be so catchy?

2. Charlie Sheen- DOU to the CHE to the BAG.

1. Jesse James- Do I really have to say anything?!

Strange Dreams? Cowboy Russell...

FINALLY! It's a personal post! Yay, right?

Last night I had a WEIRD dream. It was completely random! It was about my brother's friend Russell.

Russell and Marc have been friends since they were 13 (and I was 7). My parents have always loved Russell because he was sweet, polite, kind, all that good stuff. He stayed over at our house a lot because his mother was very sick and was in the hospital. I think her name was Patrica; and she might have had lung cancer (I was too young to remember).

Russell soon became just like another older brother. Well a nicer, quieter, a better smelling older brother. They stayed friends all through high school until Senior year when Russell and Patrica moved to Oklahoma. Town population- 400. Russell said his graduation class was about 20 people (7 of which were his cousins). He's visited us every other year (most of the time Marc wasn't even home) and he stayed for dinner and told us what was happening in his life. The last time he came it was before Marc and Carissa left to get married. Russell gave them a 100 dollar bill as a wedding present and informed us that he had joined the U.S. Army.
Of course my brother was P I S S E D

"After everything I tell you you go out and join the military? Not even the Marines? The...army?"

(Marc has always had issues with the Army)

Russell laughed awkwardly "Sorry buddy, it was something I had to do."

I don't remember the dream that well, I just remember certain parts. I was 16 or 17 (at least because I was driving). Russell visited us and said that he'd be staying here for a while. He also said that once he left he would be doing his last tour of Afghanistan (my dreams are very detailed). I ended up taking him, my brother, and Carissa to a JV football game (because Marc and Russell played JV until Russell got hurt and Marc got sick their Junior year).

Marc and Carissa left for some reason and I started talking to Russell actually TALKING. We talked a LOT and about mostly nothing, just talking. Finally Russell told me how much I've changed since the last time he saw me. Then...HE KISSED ME!

I was like "Whoa! Whoa! What just happened?"

Russell said "Oh my god! I am so sorry it's just-"

THEN I WOKE UP!

Yeah, weird dream! Not creepy at all! Considering the fact that HE'S MY OLDER BROTHER'S FRIEND! I mean he's only six years older then me but STILL! I guess Russell is cute. The last time I saw him his hair was REALLY dark and kind of long. He was skinny and TALL and he smelled like dirt. Very tan but he had a scratch across his cheek (he said it was from some barbed wire) and he drove a Chevy truck. Classic cowboy, red neck thing going on, right?

I hope he's okay. Considering the time we he told us that he has enlisted into the Army he's probably in Iraq right now. I the reason I had that dream wasn't because something bad happened to him...because, you know things like that happen!

The Boy Story

*Personal post FINALLY*

I looked back on my blog post from June and July and I've noticed how much I've changed since then. AND how many boys I've been through! So I've decided to post my own boy story:

My first crush: Bobby! I remember that like it was yesterday. In the third grade I had a crush on a boy named Bobby. When I told my friend Kassie that she glanced over at Bobby who was on the other side of the room and mumbled "Ew..." Bobby was cute when he was little! He had a big head and a mop top haircut. I had a crush on him all the way up to the 6th grade.

Santa Stole my Boyfriend.

My friend Tori played this song for me at school on Friday. We continued to sing it ALL DAY long after that (replacing the cuss word with TRICK).
"Santa, you TRICK. I didn't get a thing on my Christmas list.."

So I heard Santa on my roof tonight. I totally saw it. No lie he was right there!
Why do you act so surprised? No I don't believe in Santa anymore but what if I did? It's fun believing in him :) You know: Things only exist when you believe in them. It's my motto.

We know Santa as the jolly, bearded man but who is he really?! It's said that Santa started as a man named Saint Nicholas. He gave gifts to needy children every year for Christmas. He also assisted prostitutes! Yes you heard me right! Not in a bad way.
He would give their father *cough* pimp *cough* money so that the father wouldn't sell the girl into slavery. He was a really sweet guy :)

Happy Holidays Guys!

Oh and sorry about the short, impersonal blogs! I know you guys miss Maggie and B and Melissa and Tori and Chase and Jake and Cute Vet Guy and ALL THESE PEOPLE. There's just not that much going on lately. Trust me, I'll have more to talk about later :)

Twas The Night Before Christmas.

It's Christmas eve! I've officially texted everyone in my phonebook wishing them a Merry Christmas.

People tend to forget what it's about. Even if you're not Christian you should know that it's about giving! It's about not being selfish and it's about family.

And even if you don't believe you have to appreciate the story:

Joesph and Mary (who the world has practically turned their backs on) only have each other and the hope of having a child. Their friends hate them because they think they did something wrong. They are alone and must travel hundreds of miles while Mary is pregnant because some douche *excuse my language* of a king wants them to.

On Mary and Joesph's journey, three wise men discover a change in the stars and believe that the stars will be pointing like a map. So instead of staying at home comfortably, they travel HUNDREDS of miles for months to see these stars. On their way they talk to a king and tell them of the prophecy of the stars. Of the messiah (the son of God). The king (who is so afraid of losing power) tells them to bring news when they find the Messiah.

When Mary and Joesph finally get to Bethlehem Mary goes into labor. But every Inn is so crowded they have no room for them. Finally, one man offers the barn outside the inn where Mary gives birth to a boy named Jesus. A star shines overhead, pointing like a map.

In a Field nearby Shepard's tend to their sheep when thousands of angels appear, telling them of the great news. Every Shepard follows the star into Bethlehem wishing to see the newborn king.

The wise men arrive and greet Mary and Joesph. Telling them of their travels and giving gifts.

The Shepards come to see the child's face. When Mary offers a shepard the chance to hold Jesus the shepard refuses and says that he is not worthy.

That was when Mary said "He is a gift to the world."

The three wise men decided not to tell the king of the Messiah and travel back.

That night an angel meets Joesph in his dreams and warns him to leave Bethlehem. And soon the king casts an order to kill every newborn baby in the town.

Mary, Joesph, and Jesus leave safely. They leave together. And they have hope as they walk away.

Even if you don't believe in the story then you need to realize the underlining hope there. Mary and Joesph had NOTHING. Their families hated them because they thought Mary and Joesph had sex before they were truly married. They were people who continued to be stepped on.

But even when everything seemed wrong...

there was that star that shined overhead.

That story shows that there is ALWAYS hope and that this is a time for giving.

NOT for presents.

So be kind to someone this Christmas.

THAT'S ALL I GOTS TO SAY.

Alice-ing This Butt Up!

So I kind of have a girl crush on Ashley Greene.

NO there are NOT any lesbian feelings towards her.

I just think she's great! AND I've always been super jealous of her.
Why?
Well....


Yeah, maybe it's the fact that she makes out with Jackson Rathbone for a living and comes home to Joe Jonas? Or maybe it's that she has the perfect body?
SHE HAS THE PERFECT BODY! Grr, I wish I had her body! *No homo lol*

When someone asked her how she lost weight she said that on set for Eclipse she didn't have time to eat a lot. After her publicist nudged her for saying that Ashley also said that when she did eat it was always something healthy. Plus, she trained about 4 hours a day and did palitees.

So...all I have to do is work out constantly and starve myself. Great.

Hah, seriously though she is great and I that is a cute video!

And Jackson Rathbone is one VERY attractive male. As in VERY, VERY attractive.

Am I right?

I'm right.

The Weather isn't Frightful but the People Are.

Texas weather is really crazy! 2 days until Christmas and it's barely even cold out. But then again, in a week from now it'll probably be snowing (that's how bipolar Texas is). Last year was the first year in a WHILE that it had actually snowed on Christmas day. We got about 2 feet which may not sound like a lot to you but to us...the freaking world was ending.

We're probably not spending Christmas with the rest of the family. Evelyn (my 'grandmother') hasn't called about it so...I guess we're spending Christmas alone with my real grandmother.

I'm excited for Christmas! Maybe, so that all the drama in our family will END.

Every year there is drama on Christmas! I think the only year where there hasn't been drama was the year my uncle died. Sad, right? My family is super disfunctional. Well at least a part of it is.

My brother is so lucky! He and Carissa are happily over in Hawaii a couple thousand miles away from Larry and Evelyn -_-.

Obviously I have issues with my 'grandparents'. I don't even call them my grandparents anymore because it just doesn't feel right. The short side of the story is: Evelyn and Larry like my cousins better. They have ALWAYS been like that. My brother doesn't even talk to them anymore because of it.

They have always invited my cousins over for trips, never invited me or my brother.

They call them constantly and are all super sappy.

They ALWAYS spend all their money on my cousins.

Really though, I don't care. If they're not going to put forth the effort then I'm not. And I don't resent my cousins for it either, they are adorable :).

The only reason why I even go to their house is for my Uncle Joey and my Aunt Brittnea.

Larry and Evelyn adopted two disabled children (and no they didn't do it to 'be good people' they did it because it makes them more money, words straight from their mouths).

Joey and Britnea are the sweetest kids you will EVER meet. They are so kind and loving!

Joey is nine and he is a parapellgic *I know I didn't spell that right*. And Britnea is 19 and is mentally challenged. Brittnea is really sweet! And Joey has this personality that just shines through. I'm sad that I won't see them this year.

But I'm happy that I don't have to see Larry and Evelyn.

But I guess every family has it's thing, right?

screw them anyway

A girl with Kaleidoscope eyes.

So I am a die hard fan of the Beatles. And no I'm not one of the fakers that likes one song but wears their t-shirt everywhere so that people think they're deep.
I swear, if they found a way to bring George Harrison and John Lennon back to life for just ONE reunion concert I would sell my kidney for tickets! No lie.

Maybe, you've notice from my little pink playlist at the bottom of the page that I have a lot of 'Beatles' songs covered by the musical Across the Universe. While I do love that musical, if the real versions were on the website I would pick those instead. Just sayin.
What I love about the Beatles is that they haven't written a song that I haven't loved. And it seems as if every one of their songs has a secret coded message behind the lyrics.
Like the song Lucy in the sky with Diamonds:
I have a STRONG suspicion that song is about someone tripping on LSD.
Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds. Yeah...
I mean back in the 60's they couldn't write music as boldly as we do now. Everything had to be coded so that parents didn't realize that the songs were really about drugs or sex. So I wouldn't be shocked if their song I wanna hold your hand was really about sex.

You know *bragging time* my mother actually talked to George Harrison on the phone. George Harrison! Also known as MY FAVORITE BEATLE!
Mom worked in a law firm in the 90's or 80's (I don't really remember what date she said) but it was the time when he was in the Traveling Wilburrys
(along with Tom Petty who is also one of the greatest men on the planet!).
Mom said that he called introducing himself as 'Spike Wilbury' (which was his nickname for the band). Mom obliviously asked him for his real name.
He said in a British accent "George Harrison."
Mom was STILL oblivious that she was talking to a beatle. I mean how many British guys out there are named George Harrison, right?
She ended the conversation but as soon as she set the phone down her mind clicked! She jumped and said "OH...MY...GOD!"
So yeah...no big deal! ;)



So the Beatles are the bees knees!

Heres some of my favorite songs:

1.Here comes the sun.

2.With a little help from my friends.

3.Hey Jude *Na, Na, Na, NA-NA-NA-NA*

4.Let it be

5.I wanna hold your hand

6.Can't buy me love.

7.Revolution

8.Dear Prudence

9. Twist and Shout

10.Imagine *really only John Lennon

but...I'm still putting it here*

My father and I always get into a fight about whose better: The Beatles or Micheal Jackson. He says Micheal Jackson because Micheal lasted for 40 years and the Beatles only lasted 4 or 5. Well that only proves the Beatles awesomeness BECAUSE of course Micheal is going to stay popular if he's always around. The Beatles have been over for 50 years and they STILL have a strong impact.

But I must admit...Micheal is pretty awesome too.

Almost Santa.

I felt a little like Santa today. You know, except for the whole...fat and hairy thing. My parents have these friends who are in a little bit of trouble. Their names are Pete and Sarah and they needed a little help. Pete is an ex-marine and they are both...well old hippies I guess. They are very anti-government. Pete wouldn't take social security for a long time because of it but then Sarah got sick...

They were forced to live in a horrible neighborhood to be able to pay for Sarah's hospital visits. Their house was constantly being broken into. They have a son named Mike who got into a lot of trouble as well. He went to jail for 20 years.

He got out about a year ago but we found out that he broke into a car a week ago. A couple of days before Sarah's birthday...

So, knowing that they can't afford that much food; my parents and I made a basket for them. FULL of blankets, snacks, sugar-free candy (they're diabetic), fruit, etc.

We snuck it on their front porch and left. I hope they get it.

And I hope they get a Merry Christmas.

That's the basket!

Some Girls Make Weaponry.

"I wanna peel your clothing off the way I always do..."

Whoa! Are you already shocked! That is a little part of my new favorite song (because we all know that changes ever 5 seconds). It's called 'Some Girls Make Weaponry' and yes it's about sex. But it's kinda discreet so you can listen to when your parents are in the room as long at they aren't paying that much attention.

That brings me to the topic of this blog: Trend Changes.
Like I said; I change my favorite song like I change my underwear. And it seems that the rest of the world likes to do that too. Do you remember silly bandz? You couldn't walk down the hallway without seeing 20 different people wearing them! Now no one gets caught dead wearing them.

The Jonas Brothers! Do you remember them? They were a trend *a trend I happily followed* until Twilight came along. All the magazines replaced Nick, Kevin, and Joe's face with Robert Pattinson and later Taylor Lautner. *Don't get me wrong they are both very attractive. Along with Kellen Lutz and Jackson Rathbone and...*

Then came the hurricane! The short, flippy haired, soprano singing voice hurricane.

*dun, dun, DUN!*

JUSTIN BEIBER! After he came along the Jonas Brothers slowly faded away. That scares me! It really does. When I was growing up I had NSYNC, Hilary Duff, and later The Jonas Brothers. Now all the kids have today is The Beibs.

And now all the Disney stars are messed up! Vanessa Anne Hudgens posing naked (I like her though, she seems cool), Miley Cyrus getting high and hooking up with some dude from Nickelodeon, Demi Lovato in Rehab for emotional issues (I like her too :/)....this is crazy!

Oh and at 12:33 (central time) there's gonna be a lunar eclipse tonight! Super cool right? I'll be watching it.

SNL FUNNY FUNNY!

So I love Andy Samberg :) he's awesome! One of my favorite of the new SNL cast (him and Taran Killam because...well I grew up watching him). This video is really funny and I caught myself singing it later.

Her name was Cassidy

She loved to smile but she never did in pictures. She was too nice and tried too hard to make people laugh. Her hair was never fully straightened and her make up was never right. But she was happy and she loved her life.

Click this: i'll be in-love by friday

&&Her name was Cassidy

She loved to smile but she never did in pictures. She was too nice and tried too hard to make people laugh. Her hair was never fully straightened and her make up was never right. But she was happy and she loved her life.

texas. fourteen. freshman. abnormal.

Click this: i'll be in-love by friday

Hipster?

So I heard of this new type of label for people:Hipster.

Awesome name, right? Well since they have such a super fantastic name I thought I should give 'em a look. It's the same friggin thing as 'Indie'. People tend to be very annoyed by hipsters, you know why? Apparently here's a usual conversation with a hipster:

Hipster: So I went to see this band last night?

Reg. Person: Oh? What band?
Hipster: You've never heard of them.

Reg. Person: Oh....well, where did they play?
Hipster: At a coffee shop.

Reg. Person: Which one?

Hipster: You've never heard of it.

Reg. Person: Okay *walks away*

I've never met a 'hipster' so I'm not sure what they're really like. But from what I've heard they are those people who stop liking things if they're popular. Why should you let other people change your decision?

So I like the name HIPSTER and I like the clothing (I even like the idea of unpopular music). Just adding another label to my hypethitical jar of labels for people.
I THINK I SHOULD START MY OWN LABEL.What da'ya think?

Mind Tricks.

If I could do supernatural things with my mind...SO MANY people would be in trouble!
I mean seriously, like my World Geo. Teacher. Ooh she'll start seeing strange things! She'll think she's being chased down the hallway by a guy in a pink bunny suit. Yup! That'll look great to the super attendent.
Jake will accidently forget to tie his shoe laces and fall down the stairs! CHILL guys, chill he'll just fall from the last 4 stairs *maybe 5*
Austin *cute vet guy* will magically be placed in a freshman class. He'll lose his pencil and ask me for one. Then we'll fall in-love and he'll take me to prom! Yup, it's gonna happen.Teeth/Werewolf guy will forget that I call him that.The people who stand in the middle of the hallway and talk will 'accidentally' get run over by the entire varsity football team. Every person with B.O. that I am forced to stand next to on the crowded stairs will magically learn what deodorant is.My gym teacher will learn the wonder of Midol. So maybe she'll actually be happy and understand my humor.
B will get smacked in the face with her own foot while she's doing drill team kicks.That girl who wears a skirt in gym will grow hair VERY quickly.

Before I get scolded for not posting in a while I've been very busy. Believe it or not it's exam week so I MUST study. I don't want to be a freshman again, right? THAT would be horrible.

Notice.

kinda bad day...*Big Time RANT*

Today was definitely on the suckish side. Nothing seemed to go my way and whenever that happens I feel extremely self conscious. When school let out I rushed to the parking lot, got into the truck ,and just started bawling. My dad was so worried! He continued to ask me "Whoa...what's wrong?". I just told my father that it was PMS (because it probably is). Dad knows that I get depressed during that time so he believed me. Whether it was my bad day or PMS, I was just out of it. Maybe it's the fact that NOTHING worked out today or maybe it's the fact that I have 5 MAJOR test tomorrow. Did you know that your college career starts when you're a freshman? I HAD NO IDEA! Why don't they tell us these things I don't know...BEFORE WE PICK OUR SCHEDULES?

Grr...I HATE my school system. Honestly, they are a bunch of selfish people. Do you know why they always ride your butt whenever you miss a day of school? BECAUSE THEY LOSE MONEY! For every student that attends the school, the more money they get. They don't care about your grades!

Oh and don't even get me started on dress code! It serves absolutely no purpose. Having the dress code only makes this more difficult. Like #1. The kids are uncomfortable which affects grades #2 More people are going to detention because of dress code #3 It doesn't help 'stop judgement' because it really adds onto it because no one is going to look good in dress code. Really school just spend some extra money and buy us UNIFORMS! Instead of making us do it.

OH and PDA. It's annoying right! I don't really care if you kiss in the hallway (even if you 'make out') but when you are GROPING eachother in the hallway it's gross! I passed by this couple and the guy had his hand all the way up the girl's shirt. I don't care what you do because I believe that things like that *sex* don't change who you are but KEEP IT PRIVATE! Do it behind closed doors! Please?!

So Jake and Sam kissed in the hallway RIGHT NEXT TO ME! *Lol of course that's what started my rant* They weren't groping eachother or anything it was just a kiss. Now it wasn't a grade school 'peck' it was more of the...movie kiss? I don't know how to explain it. It was the kind of kiss that looks pretty *not the kind that makes them look like their eating each other's face*

The messed up part is that JAKE SAW ME right before he did it! He knew I was walking by. Jake is not the using type just to be clear. He would never do that to Sam but you think he'd be more...considerate? I don't know...boys are complicated!

I wanna play a game Mom! NO CHEATING. One of these boys is Jacob (and no this is NOT a stalker shot thank you very much! I took this.) I wan't you to guess...

Do you want the answer??

Did you expect that?! ahaha.

December 5

Christmas is my absolute favorite holiday. And not just because of the presents. There's a reason why they give us a couple weeks to celebrate it, right? Because Christmas is WONDERFUL.

I adore the feeling of family. Having my loud, crazy family surrounding me just makes everything feel okay.

I adore the music. Christmas carols are beautiful to me. I love the joy in the words.

I adore the lights. The lights are probably the best part about Christmas. I LOVE Christmas lights. They are just so gorgeous.

Lover Boy.

At times I wish that my life was like Romeo and Juliet. They met one day, fell in-love, and got married the next. Sure in a week they both commit suicide. Depressing and tragic; yes. But the entire time they knew what the other was thinking. They were both in love....even if it only lasted a week.

((the only reason why I have that picture up there is because Romeo looks like Jake but with blond-ish hair))

Since I am now aware of my boy-retardedness I told my friend Jacob of my problems with Jake (coincidence with the names). He gave me some advice on boys:
1. He's probably not completely 'over you'. If a guy ever has a thing for you it sticks for a long time. Unless you do something really bad.

2. Stop texting him. If you stop texting him he'll start wondering why. Therefore he will think of you more.

3. ((I asked him about make-up)) We don't really notice it. Except if you have TONS piled on...we don't really care.

4.((I asked him what body shape guys prefer)) Everything. Guys are like girls we all like different shapes.

5.Guys like hot girls. There's no getting around it! We like babes, we like looking at them. SO yeah were always going to stare at those pretty girls in the mall. But if you only like the girl for looks, you're gonna have a pretty f*cked up life...

so there you go...some advice from an actual boy!

STOP!!! CASSIDY IS DOING CONTRUCTION TO I'LL BE IN-LOVE BY FRIDAY! SHE'S THINKING ABOUT CHANGING UP THE ENTIRE LAYOUT OF THE BLOG...MAYBE SOMETHING BEACHY! ANYWAY THIS BLOG IS GONNA LOOK SUPER NASTY FOR A LITTLE WHILE SO COME BACK LATER.

Muchacho muy guapo esta el Taco Bell!

Translation: A very handsome boy at Taco Bell.
Today could be described as pretty much the best day ever. And that's only because everything today seemed to fall into place. I COULD put the entire day in full detail but I have bigger news!I saw someone VERY special in the parking lot of Taco Bell just a couple of minutes ago. I must tell you the story!Mom and I were in the car and we watched dad walk into Taco Bell. A couple of minutes later this red car pulls up and couple of spots over. A senior from my school that I call 'Christofer Drew guy' stepped out of the drivers side. Next, the passenger steps out in khaki shorts, a white shirt, and a blue Aeropostale jacket.
Both mom and I scream "AUSTIN!" at the same time! ((Austin is cute vet guy just so you know)). Mom keeps saying "Wow...he is so cute!" While she's saying that I AM FREAKING OUT! He smoothly walks toward the building completely oblivious to us. We see him head for the door when he opens it for someone. Sweet right? He opened a door for someone who might just be a complete stranger...

MY FATHER STEPS OUT OF TACO BELL!!! He smiles at Austin and says something. Austin held the door for MY dad! Dad doesn't know who Austin is so he asks why I'm screaming when he steps into the truck. I say "Do you know who that is?! That's cute vet guy!!" Dad's like "Really? He's a nice boy. I said 'Thanks a lot, man' and he said 'Of course, sir.' ...he's almost as tall as me..."Mom suddenly jumps in "YEAH HE IS! He is so...." I'm sitting there while my parents talk about how great this guys is and I'm suddenly getting super awkward.

Mom thinks Austin's adorable because he's not 'sickly skinny'. Apparently I like 'sickly' guys. I don't think so but Austin is bigger then most. But he's not chubby! Just saying. No he's....husky? He's big but he's solid. And he's TALL. He doesn't have moobs or a second chin so he's not 'fat' he's just big. As my friend Demi described him "That senior with short, blonde hair. The buff one! He has a car, that makes him hot!"

I can not wait

until Monday

to tell all

my friends!

12-2=10

Today is December 2, 2010 (12-2-10). I found out today in my science class that you can do math with the date! *12-2=10* Do you see what I do at school? Productive, right?
I was singing that song Float on by Modest Mouse today when I noticed that it's kinda the anthem to my life.

"Even if things get a little bit heavy, we'll all float on."
Doesn't that sound like a completely inspirational song? It is to me.

Not to get you guys hopes up but....I THINK Sam and Jake broke up. Or they're fighting? After school I was walking to the parking lot and Jake passed me. I totally saw him but I pretended I didn't. He stopped me just to say 'Hey' and he walked back into the school, he looked mad. You should know that Jake and Sam usually stay together after school. But Sam walked in front of me ALONE and she looked PISSED.

I really enjoy messing with my friend Chase. It's pretty darn fun :). B kinda has a crush on him. AND Chase kinda thinks that B is the most annoying girl on the planet.
So yeah...ANYWAY during one of Chase's football games
(Me, Maggie, B, Melissa, and Vicky were all there).
B kept asking "What's Chase's number? What's Chase's number?"
Finally Vicky is like "80! HE'S NUMBER 80!"
The B starts jumping up and down in her seat screaming "Go Chase, Go Chase!" The way she said it sounded super sexual at the time. So now we use it to mess with him.

Today he was talking about how he was going to join the lifting team. He was talking about how tight and short the uniforms are.
I was like "We should invite B to you first match. She would LOVE that."
The at the same time Maggie and I scream "Go Chase, Go Chase!" AHAHAHA XD

During lunch yesterday we were all sitting at the table. Maggie tells B that Kim is going to sit with us today (B and Kim hate eachother). So I say "You either sit next to Kim or Chase..." and I glanced at Chase. He mouths "Stop it!" and I cracked up laughing.

Cute Vet Guy passed by me on my way to 5th period. My friend Carly says

"You KNOW you want to look at him..." as we walk by. He was talking to his friend who kind of looks like Christofer Drew so he didn't notice me OR the fact that Carly said that

super loud.

I'm not bitter.

But I've seen better days...

Wednesdays always seem the same to me. I'm not exactly sure why...but they do. Not this week. The fire alarm went off in my 3rd period today and it lasted until 5th period. THAT'S TWO HOURS! We went outside and waited for an hour until they decided something wrong happened to the system. THAT'S NOT WHATS IMPORTANT!
Do you know who Cute Vet Guy is? Well he's a senior and he volunteers at the vet
(sweet, right?) ANYWAY I saw him at the vet then I saw him at school the next day. He said "Hey, you were at the vet!" ever since then my stomach drops every time I see him. I SAW HIM TODAY! We were practically wearing the same thing. Okay so MAYBE we have a dress code....but still! We were both wearing a black shirt, white jacket, khaki pants, and tan shoes.
He walks past me and he does the nod thing (like all guys do) then he stops when he sees my outfit. He motions to his outfit and to mine.
He goes "We're so stylish."
I was like "Oh yeaah..."
In my head I was saying "THIS IS A SIGN THAT WE'RE MEANT FOR EACH OTHER!"
We're going to get married and he's going to own his own vet. Then we're going to have three kids who grow up to be as beautiful as him...

JUST KIDDING GUYS!! Chill people, chill. Cute Vet boy isn't my new 'guy' I'm still trying to get over the last one. I saw Jake and his girlfriend together after school. I was kinda walking behind them *NO I WAS NOT FOLLOWING THEM....* I must admit that they are cute together.

I just wish Jake hadn't said that he wanted me...wait did I not tell you guys? When Travy
(Travy seems to be the messenger between me and Jake).

He asked Jake when he was going to ask out Sam* Jake's current girlfriend.
Jake replied "Don't tell anyone bro but..."
Travy says "I won't tell anyone!" LIAR
Jake goes "There's this other girl..."
"WHO?!" Travy calms himself "I mean...who?"
"...Cassidy..." Jake says

So yeah...now do you guys understand why I'm mad? Not the fact that he's dating her but that he picked her over me. Ya get it?

Oh AND I'm getting really annoyed by the fact that people keep on saying that Travy and I are dating. IT'S ANNOYING! I think Travy has a little bit of a crush on me but he won't do anything...I know he won't because we're super close. So Travy and I decided say we're second cousins. So if anyone is like "Look at the cute couple." we can be like "THAT'S INCEST!"

Flawless plan...

These dreams?

^I really like this song^

People say that dreams are like windows to the conscience. They can tell things about yourself that even you don't know. I keep having these dreams about Jake...it's weird. It's not like I loved him. But why is he stuck in my mind? I guess when a person is stuck in your mind long enough, it takes a while for them to get out.

It's 6:50 p.m. on Monday. I feel asleep on the couch. I've been having dreams about Jake for a while. This time we were at Six Flags! Holiday in the park. We were there with my little cousins and we watched them when they got on roller coasters? It really was a pointless dream! I would really love to stop having them as in....RIGHT NOW. The messed up part is that I don't think about him before I go to sleep, I barely think of him at all anymore. I HATE my dreams right now. YOU SUCK!

Why can't my conscience be like Jiminy Cricket? That would be so amazing. Having a little cricket singing whats right and wrong.......

ANYWAY we must solve this boy issue. Since Jake is out of the picture I must find a new guy. Lets see....Todd is way over. You ask why? Well...I just kind of grew out of him. Scott dated the most 'flirty' girl in school...so I've decided to give myself a complete boy makeover.
No more Todds, Jakes, or Scotts...

I need more Green Shirt guys, or Werewolf Boy guys or Austin 'Nice Guy From Vet' guys... well looks like I'm going to have to work hard to get them XD

It DOESN'T HELP!!

So my mom was never nervous to give me the 'birds and bees' convo. It happened in 4th grade...I was like "...okay..." She didn't know that I had already learned that from the TV show FRIENDS. But she thinks that we have this great relationship where we can talk about anything...WRONG. Okay, it's important to talk to your kids about sex. But I believe that you should only tell them the things they ask about (no details) and ONLY if they ask. My mom practically forces me to listen to her crazy babbling. I know when you guys were kids you didn't have all this but we have this thing called the INTERNET. That gives us information that you don't have to tell us. EVERYTHING you were 'teaching' me today mom I HAVE LEARNED ON FORUMS AT GURL.COM (plug..it's a great website check it out gurl.com).
It's just awkward to hear it coming from your mouth...

Drive in MANIA!!

So I went to the Drive in last night (with my parents, lame right?) and we watched Harry Potter and The Dealthly Hallows part 1. AND IT WAS FREAKING AMAZING and annoying at the same time. *SLIGHT SPOILER ALERT* Alright so I'm not going reveal that much about the movie (because I'm not going to ruin it for anyone)
but Ron and Hermionie (I can't spell her name sorry...) STILL have not gotten together! It really is getting annoying! Really, I mean really guys? Ron freaking moaned your name is his sleep in the last movie and you still wonder if he loves you or not?! Really?! Oh and Harry and Jenny are SUPER cute in this movie! They were kissing in the Wesley's kitchen, just minding their own business when George walks in quietly. George just gets some tea (with what looks like a spoon sticking out of his ear....it's a long story) and watches them until they notice. Finally Jenny notices them and they stop. George just says "Good morning..." with this knowing look. I laughed my butt off.
Okay so they go into hiding and find a fulcrox. They each take turns wearing it around their necks because for some reason it makes you really irritable. We ALL know that Harry and Hermionie (??) lol have always been close. Ron had the fulcrox across his neck all day and started noticing all the little things as if Hermionie and Harry had this secret relationship. So he gets super pissed and leaves. Then HE COMES BACK (after they switched their hiding place like 30 times)! Yeah, I'm not telling you how he found them but he did. He also saves Harry's life and destroys the fulcrox. Hermionie still threatens to kill Ron for leaving.


She goes "You think that does anything to the fact that you left?"


Ron says "Well, I don't know! I did just save Harry's life and destroy a fulcrox!!!"


Hermionie charges toward Harry "Harry where is my wand?"

Harry goes "I don't know. I DON'T KNOW!" and ran away from her. lol I love it when Harry freaks out.


The story of Dealthly Hallows was pretty cool too. It was about 3 brothers and Death. And the most powerful wand and a stone that brings people back to life and a cloak of invisiblity...it was very well thought out.




So....Ron was pretty cute in this movie. I'm super late right? There are tons of Wesley fans out there I'm sure. For some reason he was REALLY cute in this movie. Maybe he was working out or something? Whatever it was, it was extremely attractive. Haha compared to Shane Dawson and Shaun White, he was one of the cutest gingers I have ever seen XD.





WATCH THE MOVIE!!! IT'S GREAT!!

PLACES I WANT TO GO:

Happy Thanksgiving.

Aloha guys! Well I just had my Thanksgiving dinner (at 2:00 p.m.?) and I ate way too much! I feel like I'm going to blow up! Nothing all that interesting happened. Just wanted to wish you guys a Happy Thanksgiving. And you should remember all the things you're thankful for.

Things I'm thankful for:

1.) My crazy family.

2.) My friends.

3.) The fact that the world

hasn't made me crazy enough

to stab someone yet.

4.) Health.

5.) ...things like that.

WOW!!

This was amazing! I went to hang out with my friend Liz. It was mostly boring because we went to the movie theater (we saw Tangled lol). Liz's boyfriend joined us so I was kinda like the third wheel. When Liz's mom came to pick us up after the movie, Brad (that's his name) secretly gave Liz something. When I asked her what it was she told me she wouldn't say.
We get Liz's house and as soon as we get into her room she slams the door shut. She digs in her bag and gives me this black book and says "READ IT!" with this CRAZY face.
I'm like "Okay..." AND OH MY GOSH IT WAS AMAZING!
I open the first page and it says
'To: Cassidy, From: You'll have to figure it out'

On the next page it said 'SORRY' in big letters. There was a list 'Sorry for leading you on, sorry for hurting your feelings, sorry for not telling you.' I seriously had no idea who this was from. Then on the other page it said 'I LIKE' there was another list 'I like your hair, I like how honest you are, I like how beautiful you are, I like your music that makes me want to go hug strangers....' at that second my heart stops "JAKE?!" I screamed. Liz nodded.
'I like you more then her, I like you even though you ignore me now...' It said. On the last page it had a giant heart and a phone number.

Out of nowhere Liz takes out her phone saying "I CAN'T WAIT!" She dials the number.
"Hello?" Jakes voice sounded and....

I WOKE UP!!!! I FREAKING WOKE UP! IT WAS ALL A DREAM! I ALMOST CRIED WHEN I REALIZED THAT! :( Sorry to disapoint guys. The messed up part is that I was ALMOST over Jake and then I had this dream....

Why is there an obsession?!

This guy right here is MIKA. And for some strange reason he is VERY ATTRACTIVE TO ME! I have NO idea why! It's not like he's the most handsome in the world because he's really not (that's Johnny Depp lol). But oh my goodness something about this guy is just...sexy? I've never used that word before on my blog... But something about this guy is very VERY attractive! One of my last posts was a song he did called 'Big girl(you are beautiful)' and I thought he very cute there too (especially at 2:40 for some reason lol *watch it*).

This guy is very...strange to say the least. When I first saw one of his music videos I said "Oh, he's gay," right away. Because.....well maybe you should watch it yourself.

Um...so yeah. Do you get why I thought he's gay now?? But he's not...well not completely. He's Bi. Which kinda made me feel weird. Because I only have one Bi friend (but he likes guys more then girls) so I'm not around a lot of different bi people but then I realized a couple things:

#1- Who cares if he's bi? He's still really cute and looks like he'd be fun to hang out with.
#2- He's a celebrity AND he's about 10 years older then me. It's not like I'll ever meet him.
#3-Who cares if he's bi? that doesn't mean he has a disease or anything.

Anyway so that solved my first problem But I'm still wondering why I'm so attracted to him? Maybe it's the accent??

This song broke my heart...

LOOKS LIKE I'VE FOUND MY NEW OBSESSION!

Chain reaction.

I've attended the Rachel's challenge. I've accepted it. Rachel was the first to be shot in Columbine. Rachel was also the sweetest person on the face of this earth. She believed that kindness could change the world. She died of the age of 17. She always knew she was going to die young but she wanted to change the world. She wrote an essay with 4 challenges: To eliminate prejudice, set goals to greatness, be kind, and start a chain reaction. I believe that one good deed could start a chain reaction that might just save lives. The truth is that Columbine with the death of 13 people is a tragic story. Most people might believe that it is a tragic ending. But it's not the ending for the people that died that day. Their death caused America to go into shock and to really start noticing what was going on around us. I truly believe that if Rachel had not died, the world would not be the same. Rachel, you DID make a difference.

Big girl (:

I love this song. Not because I'm a 'big girl'. I'm a size 6 but I'm built like a freaking line backer. So I'm 'big' but in a different way. One thing to remember that you can be big and beautiful. Anything is beautiful! But PLEASE don't confuse Big and Beautiful with Fat and Obese (because beautiful or not if your weight affects your health that's a completely different story.) What I like about this song is that he's kinda saying EVERYONE is beautiful. Not just the big girls, not just the skinny girls. Everyone. Just saying...Lol

Fate: The REAL reason why Romeo and Juliet died.

Fate plays a big role in the ending of this story. Romeo and Juliet are described as ‘star-crossed lovers’ meaning that fate wanted this story to happen the way it did. If the families hadn’t hated each other Romeo and Juliet wouldn’t have to secretly marry. If Friar John had gone a different route, he would not have been Quarantined and the letter would've gotten to Romeo on time. If the Apothecary had a little more money he would not have sold the poison to Romeo. If Romeo waited a minute before drinking the poison he would realize that Juliet was not really dead. If all this happened the story would be different. As Romeo’s dream foreshadowed “I fear, too early: for my mind misgives, Some consequence yet hanging in the stars, Shall bitterly begin his fearful date, With this night's revels and expire the term, Of a despised life closed in my breast, By some vile forfeit of untimely death.”
While I believe that the families are very much to blame for the deaths of Romeo and Juliet, I believe that fate is the most responsible. Everything was interconnected so it seems as if it were ‘written in the stars’ that they were destined for this tragic ending.

THAT was a excerpt of my English project from a couple of weeks ago. I got a 95 (would've gotten a 100 if it was double spaced). A couple weeks ago the thought of fate wasn't so important to me but now it seems like everything. Here's a little recap of Wednesday-Sunday:

Like maybe if I paid more attention to Jake, he would've never been with her. If I told him my feelings, he wouldn't have to wonder. Maybe if Travy hadn't asked, Jake wouldn't have said he liked me. Maybe if I actually went to the pep rally I would never have started crushing on him. If my cousin hadn't had a rebel phase he wouldn't have made me crush harder. And maybe if I had left a couple minutes later I wouldn't see him and his girlfriend together. Maybe I wouldn't see him smiling like crazy. And maybe I wouldn't feel happy for him, but bad for me. And maybe I could've saved my breath and maybe I could've saved my time.
It's seriously strange how life is so interconnected. Maybe it's part of my fate to 'accidentally' push him down the stairs...haha.
Well he has a new girlfriend. It's actually an 'old girlfriend'. They dated for 5 months last year...as Jake said and quote "I will not mess it up this time."
Well you sort of messed it up with one person Jake.

I wonder if I'm susposed to happy.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm meant to be happy. Maybe I was born to be a hermet that owns 12 cats and only comes outside at night. When I get a guy for a second I ruin it. Well I'm not sure if I exactly 'ruined' it but I made myself look like an idiot. I saw Jake in the hallway. He actually ran up to me, slammed into my side and said "Found ya!" I felt as if my heart stopped beating. We walked in the hallway for a second before I HAD to go up the stairs. I told him I had to go as I walked up the stairs...he just looked at me awkwardly. I really wanted him to follow me because we have a class on the same floor but he didn't. He walked all the way to the other stairs. Maybe he realized how much of a loser I am and gave up.
Another problem: he's grounded which means no Facebook, no texting.
just feel stupid...

All about Jake...

^Picture of Jackson Rathbone (JSYK)^

Jake.
I'm sure that you guys have noticed my new crush on 'Jake'. That is not his real name. I might say his real name if we...ya know....END UP TOGETHER! lol.
(I'm actually texting him as we speak)

The History.
I thought I should tell you guys a little back story. I've known Jake since the 6th grade when his little sister and my little cousin were in the pee-wee cheerleading together.

In the 7th grade when 'dating' became the new, awesome thing (of course no one knew what they were doing) . I thought he was cute (kinda reminded me of a darker haired Zac Efron). He went to homecoming with my friend Darlene.

In 8th grade we had an English class together and I used to run away from him in the hallway. Because I thought he was weird. He went out with Darlene again (before she dumped him for her ex). I talked to him a little more after that. He stopped talking to Darlene.
In 9th grade (this year). He randomly came up and hugged me (tightly and for a VERY long time). Ever since then I've been texting him.

The 6th graders and the creepers.
I've liked him more since he actually saw my cousin at a concert. She's a 6th grader and she and her friend were ALONE. Apparently "There was some creeper guys there talking to us." as my cousin put it. She told me "Then Jake told them to leave us alone...it was SO cool. Then he stayed with us for the rest of the concert....DONT TELL MY MOM I WAS THERE ALONE!"

After that my crush has become more dominate. I've been texting him constantly. Travy found out that I like him and threatens to tell Jake almost every day.

Today...
I looked SUPER bad (as in my hair looked awful, I broke out...I think it's my time of the month :/) ANYWAY! When school let out I was really hoping I wouldn't see him. I had made through the entire day without him seeing me like that I only needed a couple more steps to my mom's car. When I stepped outside I saw Jake walking a couple feet in front of me looking around (it was a lot earlier then he usually is out). I just prayed that he wouldn't turn around and see me. He pulled out his phone and began to text someone. My phone vibrated. It was a simple 'hey :)' Message. I walked to the car without him seeing me.
The text went like this:

Me:Hey
Him: What's up?
Him (a couple seconds later): I didn't see you at school today :/
Me: I think I saw you
Him: Why didn't you say Hi? D:
Me(lying again): You were far away
Him: Well then I'm finding you tomorrow.
Me: :)

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! I MUST tell Maggie and Travy and my mum!