So SORRY!

Bloggies!!
I'm so sorry that it took so long for me to write another post! There has been tests, progress reports, projects, extra credit, make up test, make up work, report cards...so much work! High School sucks during the last semester..actually high school sucks in general. There has been a little bit of drama since the last time with Juan!! I might have told you about it but he dated one of my best friends for a year and she really loved him (She's like 18 now...). They broke up and I saw how much it hurt her. Lately Juan has been hitting on me like a LOT. At school he told a couple of people (including my friend) that he and I did things (yeah that kind of stuff). I was so shocked! Why would someone do that? I told Danny about it and he said: "Because guys think with their pants...that's why we're so stupid."
My friend told me that she knew Juan was lying and she knew that I wouldn't do that to her. I just had one more thing- clean my record at school. I still can't believe I did it but I walked right up to him (in the middle of a group of giant junior boys) and confronted him. Can you believe it?! ME! I CONFRONTED HIM!:
Me- Why? Why would you do that?!
Him- What??
Me- Why would you tell people that?! What is wrong with you? If you really wanted to go out with me, do you think that spreading lies about me would work?
Him- Whatever...
Me- Oh and....(I said this part really loud) JUAN *his last name here* IS A LIAR WHO CAN'T GET A GIRL SO INSTEAD HE HAS TO LIE ABOUT IT!!
His friends thought that was hilarious and people stopped to stare at us. I left smiling. Of course, I felt bad about it later but I don't regret it. He deserved that! I'm just surprised I did it! It was like someone else took over my body it-it...IT FELT SO GOOD! I need to yell at people more...
I had another date with DANNY yesterday, I'll talk about it in the next post.
Something really serious happened in my family that is so grim and depressing that I don't even want to post about it. Something happened to my 8-year-old cousin but he's fine! He's gonna be fine now because he's getting help...that's all you guys need to know. Danny called me that day and FORCED me to tell him. After I told him, the conversation went a little like:
Danny- Oh....
Me- Yeah...
Danny-....
Me- I know you don't know what to say.
Danny- Yeah, I'm sorry I don't...
Me- It's fine, it's okay. Everything is gonna be okay. It's just the shock you know?
Danny-...wow...
Me- Okay let's just change the subject, okay? :)
Danny- Sure (random screaming in the back ground)
Me- Hahaha what was that?
Danny- Nothing...so what's up?
Me-....
Danny- Oh stupid question...sorry.
Me- Hahahahahaha
Danny- I'm glad you're laughing:)

I really like Danny...he treats me like....anyway I'll blog ya later (like 2 minutes later) lol

Winter Jam Ya'll!

So guys I KIND OF WENT OUT ON A DATE WITH DANNY! Are you freaking out right now? I know you are:) I would've posted about it last night but I was so tired that I fell asleep as soon as I got home. Last night the Winter Jam came to Dallas. The Winter Jam is a christian concert thing. Jane had 3 'extra' tickets and she's been pushing my parents and me to go for about a week so finally, my parents said yes. It was horribly stressful, mom made a big deal about EVERYTHING (like she usually does). My parents literaly fought the entire drive up there. I'm kinda glad they fought, it gave me something else to focus on rather than be nervous. We're great actors though so when we actually met Danny, Jane, and Alan my parents were all smiley. Danny actually hugged my mom as soon as he saw her. Mom always feels the need to monitor everything she does around him because she doesn't want to embarrass me so she felt strange. Jane GOT A SUITE! Seriously her company owns a suite there and we had it all to ourselves! Danny and I sat in the blacony (right outside the suite) while my parents and his parents sat on the couch and talked. We talked whenever we could. It wasn't deep, meaningful coversations because we could barely hear each other. We had to put our faces really close together to hear what the other was saying (Mom said it looked like we were kissing a couple of times lol. We weren't!). Alan continued to give us food! I wasn't even hungry to begin with! At first he asked me if I wanted anything and stuck his tongue out at me and ran away. He came back with 2 giant pieces of cheese cake. Danny apologized for him. The cheesecake was pretty good though...
About 2 hours into the concert I got a text:
Danny- :P
I looked over at him and he was looking at me out of the corner of his eyes with this weird smile. We have this inside joke where we send smiley faces whenever we want to talk but don't know what to say. So I sent him a crayon:)

Me- O))_crayola_))>

We just laughed. Maybe it was a 'you had to be there' moment?
Mom said that Danny and I were in 'sync'. She said every time I brushed my bangs out of my eyes, he would fix his hat. Every time he yawned, I would yawn 2 seconds later (we were both REALLY tired). Whenever I tapped my foot, he would do it too. And apparently we sat the same way. My mom would notice stuff like that. Danny and I held hands for a second...but his mom held hands with him too. Lol the pastor guy told everyone to grab hands with the person sitting next to you (we didn't even pray! We just sat there holding hands like idiots)...he has warm hands :)
After it was all over we walked to the parking lot and I had to give Danny his valentines day present. It was a heart shaped pillow that said 'Text me' I thought it was funny because of what he got me. He just blushed and smiled. His parents stared at us the ENTIRE time. After, our parents stood in a circle and talked for like 15 minutes while we stood by the truck. He didn't say anything- He just held onto the pillow and smiled awkwardly. Finally after a couple minutes I realized I did something wrong and I said:
"Did I just make things awkward?"
He smiled "No I just don't know what to say..."
"I did make it awkward. I'm sorry."
He said "No that's not it. I just promised myself I wouldn't make tonight awkward...and I know if I say something right now I'm going to say something stupid and..."
Then we left with awkward hugs and sleepy goodbyes. As soon as I got into the car my phone vibrated:
Danny- Thanks:)
Me- You're welcome. I'm sorry I made things weird.
Danny- Haha you didn't at all :) it turned out way better than I though tonight was gonna be:) I'm glad you came good night:)

There were THREE smiley faces in the text message. When we got home mom talked to me in the kitchen. She told me a story that Jane told her: One day Danny ran up to Jane and said "Mom, mom! I asked Cassidy to be my valentine and she said yes!!" Then Jane said "Danny, what does that mean?" and he said "I don't know but she said yes!"

For some reason this seems like I ripped it straight out of a badly written, teenage romance novel but I didn't! I just can't believe something so...adorable could be happening to me. AND to answer your question- he is very cute:) He's got dark hair, dark eyes and DIMPLES! Lol they're cute. He's really skinny but I realized that he's like 6 feet tall (which made me, being 5'3, feel really short) which makes him look skinnier than he actually is.
Alright bloggies, I have to go! Thanks for reading and listening to my boring stories:)

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!!!

OH MY GOSH! I can NOT believe it! I know what Danny got me! Because I just got it:) Mom keep her mouth shut all day I can't believe she did it! THAT'S why dad acted all weird all day....
Okay I know you're pretty pissed right now because you have no idea what I'm talking about. You see that picture? That's what he got me. A heart shaped pillow and blanket. No big deal right? Uh no! He planned it out to a T! He knew that his mom has a friend that lives down the street from us. She put it on our front porch an hour ago:) Mom ran into the house with this white bag in her hands that said Baker's Bro. I was like "Mom! Mom you need to CALM DOWN! What's in the bag?" she looked down inside the bag then back at me. She handed it to me "It's your Valentine from Danny..."
I laughed "Yeah right!"
Mom laughed too "No it is."
"You're joking!"
Mom's face turned serious "No. I'm not. It's from Danny."
My phone vibrated "Do you like it???? :D" the text said.
Wow...Best. Valentines Day. Ever.

Happy Valentines Day!

First of all, I have to say Happy Valentines Day!

This is the first one that hasn't sucked in a long time. We don't have school today (it's some teacher work day thing) so I can tell what happened yesterday. Yesterday my parents and I went swimsuit shopping for Hawaii. And guess what! I got a bikini...top. I'm wearing a black top with a blue flower on it and board shorts. Mom freaked out when she saw me in the bikini "You're too skinny!" She said. Which lead to a fight in the dressing room about how much I eat a day. Dad just stood outside the dressing room with this scared look on his face lol. While we were leaving the store I got a text message from Juan. Juan is this guy who dated my friend for a while and he rides my bus. I didn't really know him but I replied anyway.
About 5 minutes into the conversation he sends:
Juan-So do you have a valentine?

Me- *Oh no* I have a guy in mind *Danny, Austin, not you* Who's your valentine?

Juan- Who? And I don't have one...

Me- Oh you probably don't know him. People are obsessed with getting Valentines though, it's ridiculous

Juan- I might know so who?

Me- *Sigh* His name is Danny. He lives in *********. See I told you you don't know him:)

Juan- Yeah you were right. But keep guys that you actually see in mind. (hint hint) like me:)

Me- Awkward Moment

Juan- Nah:)

Um YES awkward moment! I don't like Juan, I never will like Juan!! #1- I wouldn't date my friend's ex boyfriend-not with the way that they broke up. #2- I DON'T LIKE HIM! NOT EVEN AS A FRIEND which brings us to #3-I DON'T EVEN KNOW HIM THAT WELL!
But after that disaster I get this text message:
Danny-Hey guess what!

Me-What?

Danny- I got you something. :)

Me- Wait what?

*He didn't reply*

Yesterday we had to go EVERYWHERE! We went to at least 20 stores to get all the things we need. Which caused my parents to yell at each other. They always fight when we go somewhere or at any holiday or any vacation. It's just that mom gets stressed out and rides dad on EVERYTHING. Then dad holds in his frustration until he just can't take it anymore and he'll blow up on mom for NOTHING. Then mom's always like "Why are you yelling at me?" and pulls the victim card. And I'm always in the back thinking "You guys are acting childish!" but this time I was too preoccupied with Danny's text message.

For dinner we had grilled chicken (with my FAMOUS mac'N'cheese) when the grill CAUGHT ON FIRE ON THE BACK PORCH! You want to know what was worse? We couldn't find the fire extinguisher because it wasn't in the garage! So mom had to use flour (which didn't even work) I'm not even sure how they got the fire out! But dad just got two small burns on his hands from the grease.

After that day I was ready to just sleep all night long. I posted on Facebook that I was tired and Juan had to comment be like 'sweet dreams' I ended up deleting the post. I sat on my bed and watched the Grammys (I've never heard of Arcade Fire but apparently they were the album of the year so...) I got a text from Danny. It said:

Danny-Hey! :)

Me- Hey...

Danny- You okay?

Me- It was just a long day.

Danny- Oh I'm sorry.

Me- No it's okay. So what's up..

*a couple minutes later into the conversation*

Danny-So do you have a valentine?

Me- *I laughed to myself* Nope

Danny- Would you like to be my valentine

Me- I would love to:)

Danny- I'm glad:D

Around 10 minutes later I was in the kitchen getting a glass of water and mom walks in and says "So why is Danny so happy?"

I said "Um...what are you talking about?"

She crossed her arms "On Facebook he said 'That just made me extremely happy'"

I laughed "I don't know. I wonder why..." I walked past her

"Uh huh! I'm sure!" She called after me

"Good night mom."

At exactly 11:59 last night I got a text from Facebook. Danny had posted 'Happy Valentines Day!' on my wall.

So that's my pre-Valentines Day story. I have NO idea what it means that I'm his 'Valentine'. I really don't know what is going on. But all I know is that he made a bad day great. In an ironic way considering that I didn't want Valentines Day to come around at all and the fact that I didn't want to meet him in the first place....

Lol well guys it's Valentines day which is also my parents anniversary. I have to take a shower and get ready because we're probably going out to eat soon:) Have a Happy Valentines Day! Oh and remember that Valentines day is about all sorts of love. Not 'boyfriend/girlfriend' love. ALL types.

Love,

Cassidy

(Do you want to be my Valentine?)

Falling hard for Band Nerds!!

Guess who sent me a message on Facebook-Danny. Guess who asked for my number- Danny. Guess who texted me a couple minutes later- Danny! Guess who kind of asked me out on 2 different occasions- YOU GUESSED IT....Danny!!
Yes, he kind of asked me out! No..he TOTALLY ASKED ME OUT! But not really...I'm not sure. But here's how the texts went:

Me- So what's up?
Him-Just drumming with Ben
Me- Cool! I wish I could play...I suck haha
Him- No it just takes practice I can teach you sometime if you want.
Me-You could TRY :)
Him- As long as you want to I will
Me- Thanks :) that's sweet.

Then he kind of dropped it and asked me how long I've been playing guitar. I told him the only reason why I started playing was because I wanted to be like the Jonas Brothers. He said that he wanted to be in The Naked Brothers Band:

Me- I LOVED THE NAKED BROTHERS BAND!
Him-That's awesome lol
Me- Seriously, I have the movie on DVD
Him- That's awesome...we should watch it sometime
Me- 2 teenagers watching the Naked Brothers Band? We have to do it! Lol

Then he dropped it again. I don't get it. He practically asked me out twice and I said yes TWICE. I wonder what he's thinking right now... He probably has NO clue that I like him.

Happy Groundhog Day:)

Dear Bloggies,
It's the SECOND snow day! I've been at home for 2 days straight and I think I'm going to die. And apparently the ice isn't supposed to melt until Friday. 3 DAYS! Ahhh! *Okay, think happy thoughts, think happy thoughts, think happy thoughts. Hawaii in 2 months, Hawaii in 2 months, Hawaii in 2 months...* It's rumored that the power is going to kick off all around my town...GREAT. I'm already freezing my butt off but now I have to do it without Internet. WHAT THE HECK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?! I mean I could read that last chapters of To Kill A Mockingbird but I already know what happens *SPOILER ALERT: Mr.Ewell did it, he gets caught. He attacks Jem who gets saved by Boo Radley. The End.* Okay so maybe that wasn't EXACTLY what happens but I'm pretty darn close. I have a drivers ed book that I can read but it is SO BORING! I'm only on the second page and I'm already, ready to ride the bus for the rest of my life. *Sigh* Danny hasn't talked to me at all since he added me on Facebook. I'm sure that Jane just made up the whole gaga thing. I mean, on Saturday he did leave me alone in the living room after dinner (luckily his older sister was there to play the Kinect with me. I love her, she's hilarious) but he also did sit on the couch behind us and watch us play after a while. AND he did seem really sad when we had to leave. Ugh, I don't know. I guess I have to remember that he's probably just as shy as I am. Anyway, Happy Groundhog Day:)

Positive Message for Hope.

So I ordered three new bracelets from Amazon.com. They all have motivational messages like 'Believe' or 'Give peace a chance' or 'Wish'. I think it's important to wear things like that. Lets say that I might get a tattoo when I'm older- I'm not going to get a picture of a hummingbird. I'm going to get something that can motivation me and other people around me. I would want a tattoo on my back (right below my rib cage) that says 'Let it take you home' or 'May angels lead you in' or 'Love yourself to love someone else' or 'Stop searching' or 'We're still here.'



Meaning:
Let it take you home- This is one of my favorite quotes "It's the things that we go through that take us home." Meaning that the troubles that we face now have a meaning. It means that there is a reason why you're going through this.
May angels lead you in- This is a JimmyEatWorld song Hear You Me. This is a lot like the first quote except this one is devoted more to my faith. I have faith that I'm always protected by God and that 'Angels will lead me' wherever I go.
Love yourself to love someone else- This is from a quote from Ru Paul (yes, the drag queen!) "If you can't love yourself, how the hell are you supposed to love anyone else?!" It's pretty self explanatory but it's important to remember that.
Stop Searching- It's from a longer quote that says "Stop searching to find yourself." which means that instead of looking for yourself, let yourself find for you (I know it's complicated).

We're Still Here- This means that through everything that we go through in our life, we're all okay. No matter how many heartaches and pains-we're still here. Even when we thought we couldn't move on-we're still here. *This is my favorite*

Of course I probably won't ever get a tattoo because I'm afraid of needles and I'm pretty sure that I'm allergic to the ink (I'm allergic to metal. There's metal in the ink they use for tattoos)