Hell hath no fury like a praying grandma.

The prayers of saints can move mountains! I swear.

My grandma told me that she has been on her knees praying that high school will be okay for me. And so far it's been better then okay! I feel guilty because I didn't go to church on Sunday but I did leave ALL my money for grandma to take to offering (that was about 50 dollars) Something told me that I needed to do that.

I saw one of my old crushes today! Okay...so I saw him before but this was the first time that he said Hi to me. I knew him in 7th grade and I had a big crush on him (he was an 8th grader). We have gym together! What happened was the girls got dressed out into our workout clothes and they made us sit in the middle of the gym across from the boys gym.

I was talking to one of my friends when my old crush (lets call him Jimmy) Jimmy shouted something completely random (he tends to do that a lot) Lol. But I laughed at him and he looked at me. I went back to talking to one of my friends when I heard Jimmy shouting again. I ignored it until he screamed "Cassidy!" really loud. I looked up at him and he's like "Do you remember me?"

There could have been two things that happened at that moment. I could have been honest and said "Yes! Of course, I remember you! I've remembered you since the first day of school!" and sound like a weirdo. Or act like I didn't recognize him so...I looked at him for a moment and shouted "Oh yeah! Hey, Jimmy!" (with my great acting skills) Lol he got so excited and waved over exaggeratedly.

Same old Jimmy, he just looks a LOT different. He's way taller and way cuter. Haha.

The things you do for love: Whoa...wait, what?

I just talked to Todd....*gasp*. I know it's crazy. Is anyone having a mini heartattack?
He IMed me on Facebook. I was already talking to someone else when his name popped up. I thought that someone hacked his profile and was trying to spam me. But it was him :). I wish that I could copy and paste it but facebook wouldn't let me copy it.
But he was asking me to watch a video he and his friends did on a song they wrote. He posted it on his profile and I watched it. After the convo went something like this:


Todd: Do u want the links?
Me: I watched it. It was surprisingly good :) Lol I didn't expect that.
Todd: Haha thanks :D. We'll probably make more and might start recording?
Me: Well tell me when you do :) if you guys get famous or something I want to be say that I was one of the 1st fans.
Todd: Will do. :D
*cassidy has logged off*


How great did I do?! Awesome, right!!! Lol I didn't make myself look like an idiot or anything. I'm afraid of finding out that this all didn't happen and it's all just a dream D: But it's all good.

Olive you...

Ah! I want a boyfriend! Yeah, I know this is random but I don't care! Lol. It sucks being single! The messed up part is that my friends took all the cute guys in my grade. And all the upperclassmen don't look at me twice. It's frustrating! I'm not going to screw my friends over by flirting with their ex boyfriends...my friends are too important to me. But theres this guy that B used to date and he is so CUTE! Ah! Honestly, I don't like B but she is my friend.

But since it's high school EVERYONE has one. Even those girls that are kind of dorky and you wouldn't expect to get one have one! But they usually get the really dorky guys.

Weird fact about me: I like kind of dorky guys. I just feel like the super hot guys know that they're hot and it annoys me. Lol but I'm say dorky I mean as in 'Jason Biggs' not like 'Urkel'.

Proof: Todd. Todd used to have the whole dorky feeling to him. But now he straightens his hair...and while he is very hot now, it's not the old Todd I used to know :( awh...so sad.

TGIF Feel up?

Wow. So today when school let out something happened. My last period is on the 3rd floor so what I do is take the end stairs to the 2nd floor, then I walked a little further to go to the 2nd floor middle stairs (because the other ones are too crowded). When I got on the 2nd floor, I rounded a corner and another guy rounded the same corner. I accidently slammed into him and his hands were just 'so'. So he practically felt me up in the hallway? Yeah, it was embarrassing. He was like "Oh, I'm so sorry!" I just said it was alright and walked away...no one saw it. Lol wow...only me. He was cute haha I can see him thinking "I got to second base with that girl and I don't even know her name."

I've noticed that there are a lot of fat girls in ROTC. ROTC is like a 'mini military' thing. They wear uniforms and do little routines. ROTC is a gym credit so instead of going into gym they join the club. I don't know why I had to say this but...i've been thinking about it all day.

I'm going running in a couple minutes. I've really been getting into running lately. I don't know why I just like the way it feels. I like the burn and how out of breath you get. Running like maximizes everything too. Like water seems to taste so much better and sleep feels so good.

Writer?

"The stories in her head reflect down on the paper in front of her.
On the piece of paper is the life she wants to live, the wish she wants granted,

the dream she wants to catch."

In my 1st period they are talking a lot about our futures and college and universities and student loans and financial aid and...it's overwhelming. The thought that the rest of my entire life starts right now freaks me out.

I want to be an actress. More then anything. But in my heart I feel like I am meant to be an author. I'm sure I can be both but...I also want to be an archeologist. There's 2 things that I could do: Be an archeologist and travel the world or be an author (an actress on the side) and not make much money.

I know that if I write a book that's good enough I will make a fair amount of money but what if people don't like my books? What if they think I'm a bad writer?

Depressing right?

Well I'm working on a ton of different stories now like: Guardian Angel, The Falls, A non-angsty teenage novel (my favorite), Fat camp, Wonderland or Oz....

I don't know but I feel like writing is my calling.

oKAY...

Today was borderline awesome. It started out great and ended great. First I got to the bus stop right on time so I didn't have to wait. We got to school early but I got to sit with my friends before school started. I watched movies in 2 of my classes. I wasn't ran over by any seniors. I met a couple of really cool people. I was WAY wrong about those girls in gym, some of them are really sweet...most of them are really sweet. I got complimented on my hair. I saw Todd and he actually looked at me this time...he looked at me with a surprised face I don't know what that is suposed to mean. I didn't say hi to him or anything. Then it rained all day but stopped right before I had to wait for the bus to pick me up at the school. Then I came home and got this cute jacket in the mail...I was very lucky today.

<3>

High School, real talk

2000; the number of students attending my high school and the number of times I told myself "I can't do this." Yes, today was my first day of freshman year. I've already made mistakes but tomorrow will be better.

1st mistake: I straightened my hair. The thing about me straightening my hair is that it looks great when I first do my hair but after a couple of hours my hair looks dry and gross.

2nd mistake: Baggy-ish pants. My pants were constantly falling down today and I looked like an idiot.

3rd mistake: No bag, no purse. BRING A BAG! YOULL NEED ONE.

4th mistake: Senior class...bad. I walked into a senior class today! I just freezed as soon as I saw the seniors. In my head I was screaming. No one really noticed except for this guy who walked up to me and whispered "Hey, um...I don't think you're susposed to be here..." he seemed nice.

5th mistake: Not taking an athletics class. I got gym with tons of these really stupid, vapid girls. Half of the class are the stupid girls and half are the really weird girls....um, where do I go? Looks like I'm spending gym class on my own this year.

So many cute guys this year! But they don't look my way and won't until next year. To the upperclassmen we freshmen still look like kids. But oh my goodness! I can probably count 3....or 4 cute guys in my grade but it's impossible to count how many hot older guys.

There was one cute freshman guy in my 1st period. I had to sit right next to him the entire time and he kept on looking over at me and smiling. I think his name was Dallas? Yeah, he's named after the city we live in....get over it. Lol

I saw Todd today. It's was like a split second; I just saw his hair and my mind seemed to explode with the words "That's Todd! It's Todd!". I probably saw him three times but he didn't even look my way, he was always staring at his schedule.

Freshman year so far= sucked. <3

(don't I look kind of asian in that picture? my eyes are so small)

2days 'too days'

School starts on Monday. Half of my mind knows whats coming up next and half of my mind still cannot believe it. When I think about the future I shutter. Life is already so complicated now that I kind of don't want to live on to see what complications the future will bring. No, I'm not talking about killing myself or anything...I'm just saying that if I died right at this moment...at this very second I would be fine with it. But then again there is a part that wouldn't be 'fine' with dying because I truly have not lived my life. I mean I'm only 14 for goodness sake. My parents keep me so sheltered in my home that I've never actually gone out and been stupid or made mistakes...okay I've made mistakes but.....*shakes her head* you know what I mean.

Well it seems like I have two more years to be a kid. I LIKE being a kid and I don't want to go to stupid high school. But i guess I'll stick to my favorite quote:

"Every fairytale starts with 'Once upon a time' but

mine will start with HIGH SCHOOL."

&& New obsession.

I must admit that I go crazy for T.V. shows I really like. Like Degrassi: The Next Generation or Glee or even Cake Boss. Well I have a new show to be obsessed with....
THE HARD TIMES OF RJ BERGER!!!
I have watched almost every episode on MTV.com.
It's a HILARIOUS show!! But it's one of those shows that my mother would kill me for watching.
Yeah, there is a LOT of sexual things in the shows....actually the entire show is about teenage sex pretty much.

So the star of this show is RJ Berger (the guy in the middle). I have to admit that he is kind of cute in an EXTREMELY dorky way.
He kinda has a Zac Efronish kind of way to the way he holds himself. RJ has a best friend named Miles (fat guy all the way to the left) who is kind of...hormonal? Miles is on a mission to be popular and to get really hot girls he usually comes up with stupid ways to become 'popular'. Lily(the dark haired girl next to RJ) is obsessed with RJ and has been since they were in kindergarten. Her shirt has a p icture of RJ and it says "I want you inside me" yeah, she really is that vulgar. She has an entire shrine dedicated to him in her room. Jenny (the pretty blonde) is the most popular girl in school and her boyfriend Max (next to her) is a huge jerk. RJ has a big thing for Jenny and tries to get her to like him many times.



I will admit that I don't think that kids should watch this show. I don't think 14 year old girls should be watching it but OH MY GOD it is great. Lol it's the funniest show I have ever watched. And this might sound weird but I learned a lot of things from that show that I have wondered about since guys in my school started to hit puberty.
Like "Why is he carrying his binder like that?" YEAH NOW I KNOW! And what if I didn't watch that show?! Then I would probably never know. Okay...maybe I was kinda taught about that sort of stuff in Sex Ed but still...some people didn't have 'Sex Eduacation' in their schools.

No I'm glad that there are T.V. shows like this that parental control doesn't pick up. This show isn't extremely inappropriate. If you're a kid these things will just fly over your head and it would probably be a very boring show. But if you are a teenager it's flippin hilarious.

CHECK IT OUT!!

http://www.mtv.com/shows/hard_times/episodes.jhtml

I will love you unconditionaly.

I was in-love with the Jonas Brothers for about 4 years straight. I was there from 'It's about time' to 'Lines, vines, and trying times'. I was a die hard fan. You remember the girls that camped out in the rain just to see them? That would be me (if I was old enough at the time).


It all started when I heard Year 3000 on radio Disney. I wrote down their name on a napkin, I just recently found that napkin and I spelled their names wrong 'The Joenas Brothers'. I remember that I thought that they were the coolest guys on earth. I wanted to meet them with all my heart.


My crush originally started with Kevin Jonas because I thought his hair was so cool. It stuck out in 100 different directions and I was in-love with it.
Kevin Jonas is now about 22 and married.



I honestly believe that the Jonas Brothers saved my life. They helped me smile in a time that I felt so alienated in the world. They had me playing guitar before I even knew a note. I respect them deeply for starting me on that guitar, whenever I feel alone I go straight to it.

Now, I'm not going to say that thanks to their music I feel like I belong in the world. Because I still feel alienated but when I was that young I didn't understand why everyone else was so different. Now, I realize that everyone feels alienated sometimes...it's a part of living.
they shaped me into who I am.

In a way I could feel them changing. Their music changed, their looks changed, they changed. But I strive to stay a fan. My parents got me tickets to a Jonas Brothers concert at Dallas Cowboys Stadium (it would be the first show of their tour). The concert was amazing, it was something that I will never forget. I had a great time.






The Jonas Brothers continued to change though. Finally they announced that Nick was doing a solo project and Kevin was getting married. And I suddenly stopped calling myself their #1 fan.


The reason why I feel so strongly about this is because for a while I felt like I was in-love with Nick Jonas. Yeah, i know. But I had this whole dream that before I got into high school I would be a famous actress. By the time I turned 15 I would be dating Nick Jonas who would be 18 at the time. Now I'm reaching high school and Nick Jonas will turn 18 in September. And I'm realizing that my dream wont exactly come true.

Things change and people change. I know the Jonas Brothers are not as perfect as the media puts them up to be but I will always love them. I grew up with their pictures on my wall and I will never take them off. No matter what 'Twilight' or 'Justin Beiber' phase tries to rip them out of my heart. I will always be a fan. Always.

"Don't let them get, inside of your head."
My favorite Jonas Brothers quote.

Joesph Adam Jonas <3
Nicholas Jerry Jonas <3
Paul Kevin Jonas II <3

Schedule pick up.

In exactly one hour I will be leaving to go pick up my schedule.
I have never actually seen the new high school in
person so I am EXTREMELY excited.
Alright, I'll talk to ya'll later.

<3

Walls and body image...

I'm a teenage girl so I am going to be insecure. It's just how the game goes. I'm not exactly BIG but I'm not exactly small either. I'm in the middle, and it's a cruel middle. I'm average sized but compared to my friends I'm fat. I've always been called fat even though I have a flat stomach. I never really understood why. But now I realize it's because I got boobs in kindergarten!
All my friends are tiny but I think it's because they haven't developed quite yet, I mean I'm only 14. I just have a woman's body, not a 14 year old girls.


I made a 'wall of compliments'. I wrote down compliments that people have given me and stuck it on my bathroom door. It makes me smile every time.
You should try it.

Well my mom saw a video of Jackson Rathbone and doesn't get why I think he is so attractive. Uh...BECAUSE he's flipping HOT?! That might have something to do with it!! I mean he's very talented, and has a great smile and is very cute, he has nice teeth, and perfect hair, he has pretty eyes, a great sense of style...Mom did not like the way he was dressed
"He looks like a freak." she said. Whatever mom!! Mom doesn't like skinny jeans. It's the style mom! GET USED TO IT!

"He tries too hard to look like Johnny Depp!" Mom said. And that's a bad thing?! Johnny Depp is SMOKING HOT!! What's wrong with wanting to look like him? And yes he resembles Johnny Depp a lot, and that's great.

"I can't understand anything he says!" She goes. Yeah, because he has a low, mysterious voice! You're just mad because you wish your voice was like that (LOL)

"He has a girl's figure..." Only because he's skinny!!! Goodness mom! Some guys are skinny, get used to it!! Just because dad has a beer gut doesn't mean that every guy in the world needs one!

This is kind of like a rant. Because mom has ruined every celebrity crush I have ever had!

Johnny Depp- "You're all Johnny come lately! I became a fan when he was on 21 jump street."
Heath Ledger- "He died."

Jeremy Sumpter- "The guy who played Peter Pan? Really?"

Chris Drew- "What's wrong with his face?"

Nick Jonas- "Cassidy, really? He's gay..."

Joe Jonas- "Gay." The only JoBro mom doesn't think is gay is Kevin.
Rob Pattinson- "Someone needs to wash his hair!"
Logan Lerman- "He's too skinny."
Taylor Lautner- "He's too buff."

Kellen Lutz- "He just looks like a jerk!"
Aladdin- "He's a cartoon character, Cassidy!"

So what if Aladdin is a cartoon? He's a hot cartoon!

I personally think that Jackson is very handsome and my mom WILL NOT ruin this for me haha.
But he is hot and I'm sure that a lot of people agree with me.

Oh and here's a video. Since this post is sort of about body image. This poem is so true and any girl who feels insecure about her body needs to see this:

Letters to myself and abuse.

Busy week. I went to the airport on Friday to pick up my grandma. But then I had to go back AGAIN with my friend Jacob on Saturday to get his sister Katherine. Katherine is getting married so she wanted to get married in Texas so all of us can see her. Her wedding was on Sunday (I'll post another blog about it later).

While we were driving over there I saw this very fimilar billboard that I always stop and stare at whenever I drive by. It's the stop vegitable abuse one. Gee, I wonder what that's about. The messed up part about this billboard is that it's placed across the street from a CHURCH LIFE SCHOOL
wOw....

I wrote a new song. It's about my school year last year. It's pretty sentimental I must say. It talks about what I would say if I could write a letter to myself and send it back to 2009. It's pretty much about just calming down and enjoying my time. It got me thinking about what my letter would actually look like.

It would go something like:
Dear Cassidy, it's you from the future. You don't believe me? Okay, you have a twilight journal that you hide underneath your mattress. Do you believe me now? Okay, 8th grade was awesome. Enjoy it as long as you can! On the first day STAY AWAY FROM THE PALE MAKE-UP. And that white shirt you love, don't wear it. Be careful when you walk down the stairss, you don't want to fall. That teacher you love, she'll be fired for doing drugs. That hot, short, english teacher; listen to him he is WAY smarter then he looks. 3rd period will be the best days of your year so when you see that guy that you think is gay, become friends with him fast because he will switch schools next year and you'll miss him. Don't freak so much about getting a date for the banquet, you'll have the night of your life. That really country guy in your 4th period has a BIG thing for you so stay away. Don't think twice about auditioning for the musical, you get the part. When little romeo sweeps you off your feet don't get to used to him because he will break up with you on IM. When school ends hug all your friends and make sure to say good bye to the theatre teacher who turned you into who you are today. -Bye Cassidy.


Wow...I will miss those days. They were without a doubt the best days of my life. My theatre teacher was the best person I knew. She was so inspirational and told me that I can do whatever I set my mind to. Words from the speech she gave me:

"Cassidy, you are very talented. I am so proud of you and you have grown so much since I saw you last year. You have an unique way that you show your characters and you are an amazing actress. I hope you persue and career in theatre."

Awh, I'm going to miss her. Anyway, I guess this post was more sentimental then funny but I'm in a sentimental mood. GET OVER IT!! Lol

The things we do for love: Todds back!!

I was on Facebook as usual. I usually turn off the im app but for some reason i decided to keep it on today. The reason: fate, maybe? Haha okay so it wasn't like that.

But the im app shows who else is online. Guess who was online....TODD!! Yay! Believe that I had a mini heart attack when I saw it.

Dramatization:

*in my room*

Me- "Oh I think I'll go on Facebook..."

*a couple of mintues later*

Me- "....." *turns on im* "TODD!!!!"

It's ridiculous how excited I got when I didn't even talk to him. Woooowwwww, that is very loserish.

On another note; major embarrassment hit today. On Facebook there is an app called "My friends secrets". Pretty much it asks you 'yes or no' questions about your friends like: "Do you think Bob has ever smoked? Yes or No" Then it tells 'Bob' the question and the answer. Bob then has to earn points to see who answered the question.

Well I got a new question today. Well, it's not exactly 'new' but I never read it before so it's

'new' to me.

The question was: Has Cassidy ever fanitzized about you?
The answer was: Yes.

Of course, I had to know who this was. I thought it was one of my friends messing with me. I earned enough points to see who it was. I was shocked at the answer.

Dramatization:
*on Friends Secrets*

Me: "Yes! Now I can see who said that.............OH MY GOD!!!"
*Crash* *boom* *bang* *smash* *crunch* *ouch*

I was so shocked that I literary FELL OUT OF MY SEAT!! And knocked down a couple of things....Do you want to know who said it? *drum roll* .....TODD.....

Yes, Todd! Todd answered 'Yes'. Ah! I had a mini heart attack. No lie, no joke he seriously said that. I didn't know what to do. Should I be happy or embarrassed? I mean, he sorta noticed me for a second. But then again he thinks a I fantizize about him (which even I have admit is a little creepy).

I would comment on it but I don't know how long ago that was, it could've been months ago. *sigh* Oh well, I guess I'll think of another way to talk to him.

Boys, AFSP, and clumsiness.

I'm sort of mad today because I was going to go to the waterpark with my friend Meli BUT I fell and got a injury that would get infected if I went into the water so...that sucks.

It's not that bad, I mean it's just a cut on my thigh with a bruise surrounding it. I got it because...well I already posted a blog about it but Blogger was stupid and I accidentaly deleted it. So what happened was:

I woke up to my dog scratching at the door. I stood up but my leg was asleep. I tried to walk but my leg went "Nope!" and I fell straight, head first onto the ground....what a wonderful way to start the morning.

So I couldn't go to the waterpark and I'm stuck with this stupid, *fudging *a lot of people say that* bruise/ cut . It's really ugly and right on my shin so that really sucks.

Okay so AFSP stands for "Annoying Freakishly Smart People". Ya know those people? The one's that'll correct your grammer and make you look like an idiot in front of everyone. Well, for some reason my dad invited his co-worker and their family over to our house tonight. IT WAS AWFUL! They have a daughter about my age so my parents made me hang out with her. It was the "Oh, you guys are about the same age so you should be friends" thing that I hate. But she was one of the AFSP. She corrected EVERYTHING I said. I know I have bad grammer, okay? It's a trait of mine and some people think that it's cute! Thank you very much!

By now you all must know that I am boy challanged. I came across this article written by this guy not to long ago. I realized that I know more about guys then I thought.

99 facts about guys (written by some dude. I'm not sure if he's exactly accurate but...here ya go anyway) :

1. Guys prefer neat and presentable girls.

2. Guys love flirts.

3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.

4. When a guy says he doesn’t understand you, it simply means you’re not thinking the way he is.

5. “Are you doing something?” or “Have you eaten already?” are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.

6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

7. When a guy really likes you, he’ll disregard all your bad characteristics.

8. Guys love a girl’s smile.

9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl’s attention.

10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.

11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.

12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can’t. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!

13. Guys cry!!!!!!!!

14. Don’t provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.

15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.

16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.

17. When you touch a guy’s heart, there’s no turning back.

18. Giving a guy a hanging message like “You know what?!..uh…never mind!” would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.

19. Guys love it when girls touch their hands.

20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

21. When a guy makes a prolonged “umm” or makes any excuses when you’re asking him to do you a favor, he’s actually saying that he doesn’t like you and he can’t lay down the card for you.

22. When a girl says “no”, a guy hears it as “try again tomorrow.”

23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.

24. Guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else

25. Guys love their moms.

26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.

27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn’t mean that the guy likes her.

28. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.

29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.

30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.

31. Like Eve, girls are guys EUR™ weaknesses.

32. Guys are very open about themselves.

33. It’s good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don’t let him wait that long.

34. No guy is bad when he is courting.

35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.

36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they’re not that much pretty.

37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don’t need to give advice.

39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

40. Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we are never going to think of it that way.

41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.

42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.

43. Guys virtually brag about anything.

44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.

45. Guys think too much.

46. Guys’ fantasies are unlimited.

47. Guys hate it when girls talk about their period

48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!

49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.

50. It’s not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they’ve been together for 3 years or more.

51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.

52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he’s too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won’t be matured and grow up.

53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame
themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.

54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.

55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.

56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he’s sweating. You’ll probably see that he is nervous.

57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.

58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he’s just actually saying, “Please come and listen to me.”

59. Guys don’t really have final decisions.

60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.

61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.

62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.

63. Guys believe that there’s no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.

64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

65. Guys don’t like girls who punch harder than they do.

66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.

67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.

68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.

69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!

70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

71. A guy’s friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.

72. Don’t be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.

73. Don’t be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you’ll be surprised.

74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.

75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.

76. Guys don’t comprehend the statement “Get lost” too well.

77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.

78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.

79. Guys don’t care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.

80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they’ll realize they’re wrong.

81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He’s just too stubborn to deal with it.

82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.

83. Guys’ weakest point is at the knee.

84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.

85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.

86. When a guy looks at you, either he’s amazed of you or he’s criticizing you.

87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.

88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.

89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you’re with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.

90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!

92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.

93. When a guy says he can’t sleep if he doesn’t hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.

94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.

95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.

96. Girls are allowed to touch boys’ things. Not their hair!

97. If a guy says you’re beautiful, that guy likes you.

98. Guys hate girls who overreact.

99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships

The things we do for love: Where's Todd?!

If you read the first post "The things we do for love: Screamo?" it's about this guy named Todd and my unending journey for him to notice me. I haven't talked about him for a while. And I'll tell you why....

HE'S *about* 1000 MILES AWAY!! That jerk has an amazing family that takes him to California to go cliff diving and rock climbing. So, he has better things to worry about. He said on Facebook that he's going to be in Yellowstone for about a week without his cell phone so no Facebook time.

Since, I enjoy stalking people on Facebook :) I saw some of the pictures his family posted of him. There's tons. I was looking through an album and saw the funniest thing that can ever show up in pictures. First, there's a picture of him rock climbing (I think...I'm not sure) Then, there was a picture of him looking at the camera like "Oh, yeah I am so cool!". Then, there was another blurry one when you see his hand slide. Then, another blurry one when you see his face hit the rock. And the last one is when he's off the rock and has this big cut on his forehead. Ahahaha what kind of camera do they own? Because I'm amazed that they caught that entire moment. I honestly think that was meant for me to see. I....couldn't...stop....laughing....AHAHAHA.


You might be wondering why I like him. Well, honestly I truly don't know. Maybe because he's everything that I want to be. He's athletic and charming, he's a great person, he always makes me smile...he's kinda like my own personal sunshine:)
Awh, so heartfelt. You didn't think I could be deep, did you? I FOOLED YOU WRONG!!! Ha, see what boys do to me?

Anyway so I guess this is a 'things we do for love' non-update because nothing happened...
Oh-Kay so now I feel like an idiot. Ha well I hope that you enjoyed my non-update. I wonder what he would say if he knew I was posting blogs about him...oh my god I sound like a stalker!! Lol.

Me talking to Todd: *creepy voice* Oh yeah, my last blog was about you. I described your face in full detail.
*sniff, sniff* wow...you smell so good....that's what my next blog will be about... *Todd runs away*

A couple of hours later: *blogging* He smells like vanilla and AXE cologne :) and the way he runs away is just ADORABLE!!!

Haha okay I'm not that weird but that would make an amazing blog. If somehow in some strange situation Todd is reading this: I'm not stalking you!!! Just so you know. :) Even though your name isn't Todd, I'm sure if you read this you would know....uh-oh now I'm scared

TheSceneKidz

I don't know what's up with the gothic guy picture but....I like it. Theres actually a pretty cute guy there underneath the tounge peircing, and the flat ironed hair, and the guyliner....

I discovered this website called TheSceneKidz.com (you should go there) it's mostly filled with Scene kids (hence the name).This website got me thinking about labels.

Scene crowd: A style of clothing. A lot like the emo style but without the 'emotions' that emo people are said to have. So to make it simple: Scene is happy emo people pretty much :).

I sorta hate labels. Because I fell like they restrict who we are. It makes some people feel like they fit in but I fit into no 'label'. The labels in my town: Emo/Gothic, Druggies, Preps, Nerds, Cool kids, Cool Mexicans (I'm not trying to be racist, that is seriously how it is here), The nobodies (people who kinda hide), Pwsers (the people who think that they are cool but really aren't. I made it up :D), then there is my group.

My group is nothing. No label.

But I do have experiences about how these labels clash:

Gothic vs. Preppy: One day I was walking down the hallway, just minding my own business. I was walking behind Kay a cheerleader. Kay, isn't exactly the nicest person in the world. Okay, she's a total...(I'm not going to cuss but you get my point)...mean girl. Anyway she was talking loudly with some of her other friends when JB (a druggie/gothic girl) walks by. Kay like an idiot starts talking bad about JB. I wasn't paying attention but all I remember after that was a voice screaming "What'd you say, Preppy B*****?!?!" then JB jumped on top of Kay and they fought on the ground (well JB fought, Kay kinda pulled hair and screamed a lot). Haha JB got suspended and Kay NEVER talked about anyone else after that.

Cool kids vs. Nerdy kids: What I've realized about the Nerds about my school is the fact that they don't care if they are nerds or not. I respect them for that. Anyway so there is this cool girl named Ray, she is very pretty. In my 3rd period I had Ray, her BIG boyfriend Tyl, and this Nerd named Ed.
Ed walked up to Ray when the teacher was gone and said "Baby, you are so fine. I want you to be mine." he was trying to be super cool while he ryhmed.

Ray just laughed at him.

Tyl walks up to them and tells Ed to back off.

Ed pushed Tyl "No, you back off!!" he screamed in a high pitched voice. When Ed pushed Tyl, he didn't move an inch but he was very ANGRY. He pulled Ed out of the room.

I didn't know what happened after that until the bell rang and we got out of class:

Ed was actually crammed into a trashcan. CRAMMED INTO A TRASHCAN!! I thought that only happened in movies!!! I was amazed by Tyl for the rest of the year.

Emo vs. EVERYONE IN THE STATE OF TEXAS: Okay so I heard that emo guys wear eyeliner (guyliner) but I thought that was only in movies or rockstars. But one day a emo guy came to school wearing a BUNCH of guyliner. EVERYONE FREAKED OUT. There were kids gossiping, teachers talking, parents were called, and the princapal called meetings. Seriously, there was an entire school meeting about it!! They freaked out WAY too much over some make-up. Sorry boys but it's a bit too early for that in Texas.

Small town kidz vs. The princapal: At the end of the year we got a new princapal. Since we live in a small town, there isn't much to do. So whenever there is a school fight people HAVE to go. You can always tell when a fight is coming because a bunch of teenagers will walk to the park in a group. Since so many people get a lot of entertainment from that, there are a LOT of fights. Our new princapal didn't understand that. She called a school meeting and brought police officers and judges to tell us that "fighting is wrong!" In my opinion, fighting isn't bad unless someone dies, goes blind, or loses a limb because some people need it. She said "I've been here for 1 month and there has been 13 fights! I have never in all my years of teaching seen that....blah, blah, blah" During that meeting I was hoping that a giant fight would break out. I would laugh my butt off. I have to admit 13 is a lot but that's what you get when you give kids a dress code, you live in a small town with nothing to do, and make them unhappy. How else do you expect us to be entertained?

Yeah so there are SOME of my stories. I'll probably post more soon :) but I'm tired now.

August Rush.

So it seems that summer is almost over. Which isn't very believeable because it's 105 in Texas right now... The heat is crazy and making people do crazy things. I have to work extra hard to get motivated to start running again. School starts on August 23, which isn't that far away.

I was just thinking about what happened when my friend B and I went to the movies the see Eclipse (which was actually a really good movie BTW). But the thing about B is that well....sometimes she is very annoying and mean and conceited...and self centered....

Okay so we get into the movies and she's blabbing on and on about how many guys like her, and about my ex. And i'm thinking "I DONT CARE!" but I smiled and laugh just to be nice. This guys sits in front of us and B comments on how cute he is. He turns around when B is texting and I mouth "I am so sorry!" and point to her. He rolls his eyes and laughed before turning back.

"Did you see that?" B whispered "He totally likes me!". I laughed "Maybe, he was looking at me?" I said. B rolled her eyes too "I mean, come on Cassidy. He was totally looking at me..." she turned back to text and I just stared at her wide eyed. Really?

She always said that she was the prettier, skinnier, popular one out of the two of us. Uh, okay...but the truth is that she really isn't. She's sort of pretty, she's in no way smaller then me (shes actually bigger) she just wears smaller clothes (and they're like 2 sizes too small), and I'm pretty much the only person who tolerates her.

Finally, I just relax when the trailers start to play. But the entire time she was laughing about stupid stuff!!! And she has a loud annoying laugh so...everyone heard it. Finally after about 5 mintutes of her laughing the guy in front of us turns around and goes
"AHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! So....annoying!!!" he yelled. She shut up FAST but I couldn't stop laughing, but the guy didn't mind me. He stood up and walked away.

B was quiet throughout the entire movie. Eclipse was flipping awesome. They had all these super cool tricks and stunts and it was great. It was more action packed and I liked that. B didn't like it because she wanted it to be all romantic like the last ones...I thought it was just romantic enough. And Jackson Rathbone.....so cute! He dressed up as a confederate soilder and.....Ah! Haha. Taylor Launter, Kellan Lutz and even.....Robert Pattinson were cute too. Shocking, right?