The race is back on!!!

So recently I've given up on the 'race to become popular' because I honestly know that it doesn't matter. But I've been having a very very boring summer lately and this will be something to do. I just want more friends that I can go out with and have fun. I don't want to be the 'shallow' popular, I just want to people to know who I am. I want to be known as the girl who would talk to anybody. While I already have a large amount of friends-I want more! It'll just be a fun project trying to see if this will work:

How I'm going to be popular:

1.Be yourself!!

2.Join as many clubs as you can. Join sports if you have any type of
athletic ability(which I do not)
3.Be confident!
4.Hold on to friendships and value everyone
5.Don't change yourself

That's all I got so far guys. I'm hoping this will work:) Look forward to a crazy year next year! With more friends comes more enemies. SO look forward to drama and touching stories.

Survivng High School *inspiration*

So there's this SUPER fun app called Surviving High School. It's freaking fantastic:) and I recommend it. But make sure you get the FREE version. The free version and the full version is the exact same thing so don't go wasting your money! Trust me, it's really fun. What you have to do is start from being the new kid and you can choose your life in high school (jock, nerd, skater). I spent all day yesterday playing it. Then I played 'Homecoming Queen' which inspired me to write a new book! Seriously, I have the entire story in my head now:) Go get the app!

Mom might have POS

The doctor told mom that she might have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. Which is the most common hormonal disorder of women in a reproductive age. Mom and I looked it up and she had almost 80% of all of the symptoms. The good thing about this disorder is that it's not life threatening (most of the time) and it can be taken away. One of the symptoms is OBESITY!! Which will explain mom's rapid weight gain (she gained like 50 pounds in 2 months). The good thing is that when they'll help her, she'll lose weight. She's going to go get another exam to make sure that's what it is. I'm pretty certain because like I said, she has 80% of the symptoms.
Please, pray for my mother?

Why you gotta be so mean?? ♥

Recently I recieved a message on blogger by a girl who did not like my blog whatsoever. She told me that it was stupid and pointless. She told me that I'm a stupid little girl who shouldn't be allowed anywhere near the internet because I'll 'infect' people with my 'stupidness'.....

Ahahahahaha!!!!

I am a stupid little girl! And that's why people like to read my blog. To be honest, your message made me laugh out loud! You're totally right, I shouldn't be allowed anywhere near the internet. I'm using this blog as a way to express myself without worrying about being judged. I don't care about what you think of me because you're mean and I don't care for you:) I'm not going to say anything to you because I'm sure you're not that bad of a person.
You sure are being annoying though...so stop, please?
And if you don't wanna stop then continue to send those messages because I could care less. They make me laugh :)
P.S. Stop reading if you don't like my blog. Simple as that:)

Anyway, love you guys! More posts later I promise!! ♥

PISSED OFF!!!

SHUT UP, SHUT UP, SHUT UP
DON'T WANNA HEAR IT
GET OUT, GET OUT, GET
GET OUT OF MY WAY
STEP UP, STEP UP, STEP UP
YOU'LL NEVER STOP ME
NOTHING YOU CAN SAY WILL
EVER BREAK ME DOWN!!!!

Ahhh:) don't you feel so much better??

SPIT hit the fan!

Well Marcus and Carissa are gone. Mom and them had a big fight and now they're gone. It's sad because I don't want Marc to leave. It's Carissa who is the real problem. You wanna know what happened? Well Carissa went back into their room and told Marc that my mom told her to "Get the eff out!" which she did not. I was there and mom never said such a thing!!! So Marc freaked out and starting throwing stuff and started yelling so mom started yelling. They left. With a little note that said "Sorry for the inconvienve of helping family, bye!"
Mom was so upset! She cried and cried! So I texted Carissa explaining the whole thing. I asked her if she could please text back so mom would know that they weren't dead. Carissa replied with: "Why would we be dead?"
I replied: "A mother worries about everything. All she knows is you left the house mad."
She replied: "Still am..."
I replied: "I know that. Doesn't matter."
She replied "Ok can you please stop texting us we're trying to find somewhere to live."
I replied: "Okay. Have fun."
I STOOD UP FOR MYSELF GUYS! I AM SO SO SO SO SO PROUD! Like you guys don't even know! It's an amazing feeling. I feel like I can go kick down a building if I want to.

Serious news/family drama.

About a week ago I went to the hospital with my mom because she needed a CT scan. Turns out she has a tumor on her ovary. The doctor doesn't think it's cancerous. They're still going to watch it to make sure nothing is wrong with it. Marcus and Carissa didn't even ask what her results were! THEY ARE SO SELFISH! My entire family is fighting right now because of Marcus and Carissa. It's getting ridiculous! I feel like I'm the only mature one in this house! I'm trapped in my room! I'm not going to see Danny for two weeks! And to add to that- I dropped my phone in a cup of water so it doesn't work!!! FML!

1 YEAR BIRTHDAY!!

Yeah you read this right! My blog is offically 1 year old today!! It was exactlu one year ago when I started it. Back when I was a scared little freshman! WHICH I AM OFFICALLY NOT ANYMORE! I got my report card today (perfect timing, huh?) and I passed all my classes! NO summer school and no more freshman year!

Lets see, what has happened in this year? I've been through 5 guys? Not exactly sure. But do you remember Todd? Oh the ones who started in the beginning do! And all I can say about him is= EW! He is SOO one year ago!
Hm...I got more friends who actually like being around me! I've lost some weight and I like to think that I'm becoming kinda pretty. I've stood up for myself. I've cried. I've laughed. I got a cute boyfriend!! This was a pretty fantastic year and I'm glad I got to share it with you:)

You guys are seriously the best people on earth!!!
I LOOOOVEEEE YOU!!
Thank you for listening to my boring life! I have no idea why you do it but please don't stop! Lol you should even tell your friends about my boring life?? You know...just in case...:) Anyway, I don't want this post to be all about me because I wan't it to be about ya'll! My followers, my stalkers, my HOMIES! That's it- you guys are offically my homies! (Does anyone say that anymore?).
Anyway, you guys are great and thank you so so so so much for reading! I promise that I won't stop blogging for a long time. Maybe I'll keep writing when I run away with the circus? Lol I'll keep you guys posted if I decide to make any big plans like that.

Oh, Jake!

Do you guys remember Jake? I used to have a big thing for him not to long ago? Well if not let me recap- He did something nice for my family, he acted like he liked me, made me like him, he hung me out to dry. Well I was just cruising around on the ol' Facebook when I thought "Hey, maybe I'll go look at his page!" He unfriended me!! But his profile is anything but private so I can still see all of his status updates. One update said: Alright, i went through and deleted The people i dont really care about off of my friends list. so if you can read this, it means i care about you. even if its just a little bit.
"The feelings mutal kid, have nice life." Was what I thought in my head. I never even thought about it twice- we're not friends anymore, I was okay with that.
And then he starts texting me. I text back being nice and he's being all *winky faces* and *flirty* junk. Boys are stupid. No I take that back- Jake is stupid. He's been like "I miss your beautiful face!" yeah BULL! I'm not falling for it again! I think Jake is just trying to pull me away from Danny. Which I'm telling you right now, is not happening. There is no way that I would choose Jake over Danny. I went from crushing on Jake (and feeling like trash) to being with Danny (and feeling like I'm on top of the world.). Danny texts me right back, Jake took hours. Danny tells me I'm beautiful constantly, Jake never so much as uttered a compliment. Danny is sweet and selfless, Jake only cares about himself. Hmmmm....who should I pick??? Not a very hard choice. Sorry Jake. Sucks for you:)

What a lovely morning!!!

This morning I woke up very peacefully. I woke up to the sound of 'The Lazy Song by Bruno Mars' I smiled and sang along as my eyes opened up. Then I rolled over and looked at my phone to see that I got 8 messages of Danny just being sweet. Then I got up, made my bed, brushed my teeth, got some water, the then laid back down in bed and got on Blogger. Now THATS what I call a perfect morning! Oh, and Marcus and Carissa are asleep for the moment so there is absolutely no drama at the moment....BUT YESTERDAY! I woke up to Marcus and Carissa yelling at eachother. So I hid in my room until I was so hungry that I couldn't even bare it- I walked out into the living room to see them asleep on the couch. Do you know what that means? If Cassidy wants to be kind and considerate, she can't microwave anything (for some reason we have the loudest microwave on the planet) so I had to get some toast and sneak back into my room. Then I had to go to the restroom to see THAT THEY COMPLETELY DESTROYED IT! Bare in mind that I cleaned it the day before...THE DAY BEFORE!! HOW DO YOU DESTROY AND BATHROOM IN ONE DAY?! Then my mom left to go to the doctor- leaving me alone with them. Luckily, Marcus had a doctors appointment as well so he left soon after. I was alone at last- so I watched T.V. and lounged on the couch. But after a while I started noticing that the house was getting hotter and hotter- the a/c broke! Bare in mind that I live in TEXAS. It's around 100 degrees constant all day long. So the house was real real hot! Mom was really angry at the condition of the house because Marcus and Carissa just destroyed it. So when THEY came home, Mom made sure to make DAD have a nice talk with them. A good thing about yesterday was when Marcus said to dad "Hey, go look at Cassidy's room! It's a complete mess!". HE TRIED TO GET ME IN TROUBLE! But luckily, I was bored when I was stuck in my room all day so I cleaned it. Dad came into a spotless room. TAKE THAT MARCUS! Eventually the guy came to fix our a/c, Mom and I made cookies for the entire family, and I fell asleep in a clean room. Hopefully, today will be much better then yesterday. All I know is that this was a pretty lovely morning:) But the bad thing about today is that I have to clean my bathroom -_-

Feather extension? -_-

I might be going over to Danny's house today. His sister is a hairdresser and she has a LARGE amount of feather hair extensions that she is selling for 5 dollars each! 5 DOLLARS!! And they're not the cheap ones either! People spend like 30 dollars on stuff like this. To be I honest, I think it's cool- on other people. It's not going to look good on me because I can't pull edgy stuff like that off. Danny's sister can (with her pink wigs and bright red hair). Also I don't like how everyone is doing it! I don't want to look like a TRENDmonkey and not even pull it off (yup Trend monkey- I just made that up lol) But his mom insists on buying me one. I don't want to say "No I don't want one because everyone else has one." that's just rude. So I'll just let her do it, plus I want to support his sister. I'll post pictures later:)

It was nice while it lasted.

Sadly THEY'RE BBBAAAACCCCKKK! Yeah, Marc and Carissa came back. They actually came home yesterday when my parents were in Oklahoma (they went to go visit their friends) and Marc was in bad mood. Mostly because his expensive, piece of trash he calls a trunk broke down. Serves him right for being so impatient- he knows better then that. They're not bugging me so much anymore because Carissa is starting to finally warm up to the family and she's actually talking to us now! Also I've been reading a lot more. I've gotten a lot of Sarah Dessen books that I haven't even touched yet but I will, don't worry. I wish Sarah Dessen could write my life:) she's fantastic. Right now, I'm reading Water for Elephants! WHICH IS THE BEST BOOK I HAVE EVER READ!! It's about a guy name Jacob who ran away with the circus. It's sooooo goood! There is SOME mature content. There is some cussing. And so far, I've read a descriptive part about a 'dwarf' and an eight pager (ew). So don't suggest this book to a 10 year old girl...just saying.

Happy day!

I slept in today and my slumber was not interrupted by my brother and sister fighting. They actually left for the deer lease yesterday when Danny and I were at Six Flags. Just so you guys know, I'm soaking it up!! I don't have to worry about what Carissa thinks about me. I can watch as much t.v. or read as many books as I want, without worrying about what they have to say. I'm very, very happy right now:) I hope they stay in the deer lease FOREVER! Because I don't want them to come back...is that mean to say?
(Today's post is orange because I'm feeling super 'summer'y today)

My best friend:)

I just woke up and it's 9:47 in the morning. Still trapped in my room but I'm in a much better mood. I talked to Danny on Skype last night. *GASP* THEY TALK ON SKYPE! Yes, we talk on Skype but that's because he lives 36.4 miles away and 51 minutes (without traffic). Everyone is always saying "Baaad things happen on Skype!!!" Yeah, that is true but not with us. We just talk. Either about really serious stuff or we just kid around. Last night, we talked about SERIOUS stuff. I'm not sure how the subject came up but we talked about the BAD WORD (sex). We've been together for 3 months and most couples would've had already started doing things. We have joked around before but we're not and we're not going to for a long time. I feel a certain way about Danny...I like him. I like him a bunch. Or you could say that I care about him. I care about him a lot. I might even...care for him a great deal. I might just love him guys... But I'm not going to try to grow up so quickly.
Danny asked (very shyly I might add):
"So when or if, we are going to DO things...when do you think that will be?"
And this is what I said:
"When we're ready. Or when I'm ready. I'm not going to put a timeline on it because I don't know. It could be tomorrow or in a year. All I know, is that you'll know when I'm ready. You're going to have to be patient and accept that. I don't want to grow up. It might be a long, long, long time."
And he said (with a smile):
"I've waited 16 years, I can wait a couple more."
I love that he's being very respectful and not pressuring me at all. What I realized that Danny is to me right now, is a friend. He's a best friend that I can tell everything to (kind of like you guys, since you know every thing that happens in my life).
We talked ALL NIGHT last night. We stopped talking at 2 because...well he fell asleep. AND HE SNORES SOOOO LOUD! Borderline the funniest thing he has ever done.

Sneaky blogger! -_-

My mom was starting this blog about her weight loss a couple of days ago. She was trying to decide whether she wanted Blogger or Wordpress. I accidentally made it slip that I have a blogger. AND SHE FREAKED OUT. "What is it? What's the website name? How long have you been doing it." I wouldn't tell her and she got so upset! She doesn't understand this is my way to vent without worrying about what people are thinking about me. I didn't tell her and hopefully she hasn't looked through my history to see. I'm a considerably good child! I've never been drunk or done drugs or had sex. I'm treated like I'm the presidents daughter and that I'm going to be assassinated if I'm away from my parents for a second. They're looking out for me I know but I'm allowed to have something private! As a human being I'm allowed my privacy. To be honest though, my parents aren't that bad. I was watching the Tyra show one day (and I am still in love with Tyra today) and she was talking to parents who snoop through their kids stuff and put cameras in their room! At least my parents don't have cameras in my room. At least....I don't think they do....-_-

Prisoner in my own home? I think so.

I was expecting to write all these happy posts about summer as soon as school let out but I was DEAD wrong. My brother has signed out of the Marine Corps and he and his wife are now living in the room next to me. Bare in mind that I was used to them living across the ocean. UGH! They're driving my parents and I absolutely batty. They're messy, immature, rude, inconsiderate...just ugh! Carissa, his wife, is 18 and she likes to act like she's so much older and that she knows everything. Only my mom can do that Carissa (and that's only because she actually DOES know everything). CARISSA YOU'RE 3 YEARS OLDER THEN ME! GET OVER YOURSELF! My brother and Carissa needed a car when they got home. Dad looked for months for a car for them. He wanted to get a nice one that wasn't over priced and my dad was going to pay for that car OUT OF HIS OWN POCKET! But NO that wasn't good enough. Carissa threw a little fit when she got home because they didn't have a car. They ended up buying this overpriced, piece of junk because they couldn't wait another second. It's so awkward being around Carissa because all she does is sit next to my brother and say nothing. We try so hard to include her and yet she doesn't try at all. AND on top of all of that- they are on drugs. Not any of the hardcore ones because Marc can't take those (he won't pass the drug test.) They're taking roofies or something. I saw Carissa fall asleep sitting straight up on the couch. Dad talked to them last night and he was like "Hey, I'm not stupid. I know that you guys are on something." and they were like "Someone slipped it in our drink, someone slipped it in our drink!" that was 2 days ago. Last night, they went to sleep at 4 o'clock in the morning (I know because they woke me up at 1 and kept me up) and it's now 4:00 in the afternoon and they're still asleep...yeah and it's not jet lag because they've been here for almost 2 weeks. They're so stupid. To add to that, I'm stuck in my room all day because I hate having to put on a fake smile every time I see them. All I've done this weekend is clean my room. I'd clean my bathroom but there's no use, every time I clean it they mess it up right after! I HAVEN'T EVEN GOTTEN TO SEE DANNY ON SATURDAY! I NEED MY DANNY TIME YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW! I might just snap guys! Right now would be a great time if Danny had his license. Even though my parents won't allow me to drive away with him, at least we can sit in the driveway and not be in this jail! UGH! Sorry for the depressing post guys but I'M STINKING TIRED OF THEIR BS! Well it's 4:09 right now and I can hear Marc and Carissa waking up...joy joy joy. One good thing that will come out of this is that I'll blog more....alright bye guys.

*Late post* NO MORE SCHOOL!!

I was going to post this on Saturday "Yesterday was my last day of school ladies! Can you believe that this year is finally over?! I can't even express in words how happy I am! I'm ready to EXPLODE! THAT'S how happy I am. It was only a year ago when I started this blog. I was talking about my upcoming freshman year and how scared to death I was. I feel like I've changed a lot. Anyway, I like to think that I care less about what people think about me. It's too much effort anyway, screw them! They suck anyway. I'm just going to be myself and if people don't like it- I'll kill 'em with kindness. That's the best way to get back at them anyway. This summer I'm looking for to having FUN! Going to Six Flags, To Danny's Concerts, to pool parties, and friends houses. I'M GONNA GET ALL TAN AND JUNK! And no not SPRAY tan- the actual stuff that comes from the sun (In moderation though, I don't want to develop any kind of skin cancer.) Today I'm gonna go out and buy tons of shorts in all different colors and I'm going to clean my room so that the troubles from this year won't bug me anymore. This is gonna be a fun summer. I CAN FEEL IT!" Yeah right...lol

SUMMER